Who are the actors/what was the show??


--- In unusualphobias@yahoogroups.com, "cookiemonster8918"
<cookiemonster8918@...> wrote:
>
> I guess it would be easiest for me to copy and paste some of what I
> typed for my doctors. I have a diagnosed phobia of two certain
actors
> (no joke unfortunetly).
>
> I've been suffering from this condition for almost 12 years now(I'm
> 19 just to let you all know). I'm getting to the point where I
can't
> take it anymore, and I don't know what to do. I started watching a
> TV show(I don't feel comfortable putting what show at this point)
> when I was 8. From the very FIRST time I saw two of the actors(the
> main actors), I was terrified of the way they looked. Even though I
> was so scared for some reason I could not stop watching the show.
> Every episode I watched caused me to have an increased heart rate,
> and I would start sweating buckets, I also of course had a feeling
of
> fear. I didn't start having full blown panics(sweating, crying,
> increased heart rate, feeling like I was going to pass out, chest
> pressure, full blown terror) until a couple of months after the
show
> went off of the air. I still suffer from panic attacks whenever I
see
> or hear of these two actors(or the show). I'm so bad I have to
check
> movie cast lists on IMDB before I go see any movie. I HAVE to see
the
> opening credits for TV shows to make sure neither of them or
someone
> else from the show is guest starring on what I'm watching. I can't
> work anywhere that I could come into contact with magazines, a TV,
or
> the radio(songs that were played on the show make me flash back to
> certain episodes, I'm also very scared that I will hear celebrity
> gossip about one of them.). At times I flash back PTSD style to
> certain episodes(with no music trigger), I have no control over
this,
> and it's happening so often that I've considered suicide(although
> I've never developed a plan). The past 6 months have been a
nightmare
> for me. The really odd thing about this all, is it's not just the
two
> above mentioned actors. I'm scared of the way 5 other actors look
as
> well. I was scared of one of the other 5 actors BEFORE I was scared
> of the two actors from the show. I have sought professional help,
but
> my psychologist has no idea what could be causing this. I'm
beginning
> to wonder if maybe the part of my brain that controls fear could be
> going hay wire. That's the only logical explanation I can come up
> with. I've seen several psychiatrists and only one of them has
> believed me(and she barely believes me at that). My psychologist
> takes me seriously but I'm way out of his league and he doesn't
know
> how to properly help me. I'm sure this is way more info then you
all
> needed to know, but I needed to vent.
>