actually i think you can have a love and fear of the same thing...i have a fear of snow but i love ice and it doesn't bother me at all...i'm discusted by snow it's just dirty to me but snow cones and ice are clean and normal to me...so yea my situation is kinda like yours

>From: "jimbvis" <jimbvis@...> >Reply-To: unusualphobias@yahoogroups.com >To: unusualphobias@yahoogroups.com >Subject: [unusualphobias] love and fear the same thing? >Date: Thu, 06 Jan 2005 16:42:55 -0000 > > >Hi everyone, > >I'm new to this group and I wanted to know if anyone experiences both >a like for something, and then an occasional panic-attack driven fear >of the same thing. > >When I was a kid, I was fascinated with rotating blades like >helicopters and electric fans have. Not scared at all. We had no A/C >when I was a kid but plenty of those big box fans all around the >house. And I would run out to look if I heard a helicopter. Here's >something that happened though, that was really weird and probably >set me off with the fear. > >One night when I was about 6 years old I was in bed, looking through >my fan which was running at the time. I could see the across the hall >the shadow of the fan in my sisters' room against their door because >they had a night light. That fan was also running. Because of the >strobe effect of looking through one fan at another (think blades >passing by), the blades of their fan appeared to be turning v-e-r-y >slowly. I sat up in bed, and the fan shadow was spinning normally (I >didn't know that when I sat up I was no longer looking through the >fan). But as soon as I laid back down, there it was again, turning >slowly! It was one of those old metal fans with shovel-shaped blades. >I SCREAMED for my Dad. After calming me down he explained the >phenomena and moved my fan so I wasn't looking through it. That only >works, by the way, if the two fans are turning at almost exactly the >same speed. I wasn't that afraid once he explained it. BUT.... > >Wouldn't you know it, years later my high-school Physics instructor >used a strobe light and a fan - an old metal box fan with shovel- >shaped blades - to demonstrate the strobe effect to us. He even shut >off the lights to show us how the light made this running fan appear >to slow down and stop as you adjusted the strobe frequence. The metal >grille had been removed from the fan. He explained that it looked >like you could touch the blades, but if you did, you would lose a >finger. You could hear the fan running but it looked like it just >slowed down and stopped. Thanks, prof. Well, he didn't know. I was so >terrified I didn't know what to do, and when he turned the light back >on my shirt was soaked with sweat and my heart was pounding. You >can't even make stuff up like that. I felt better once he took the >fan off the table and put it away. > >Now, YEARS later I put 2 ceiling fans up in our house. I started to >have dreams of helicopter crashes. Not being in them, but watching >them. I realized all the helicopters in my dreams had wooden blades. >Later I felt really scared of ceiling fan blades which bent downward >slightly, and all of them seem to do that - just like helicopter >blades when the helicopter isn't running. I still like fans, but have >this occasional fear and I was wondering if that kind of conflict can >happen in phobias. > >Thanks for any input! > > >