I'm 23 yrs old now. Not only am I deeply committophobic, but I've very
recently developed an unusual phobia of being attracted to somebody
(excluding celebrities because "they can't hurt me"). It's frightening
enough if it's just a "crush", but obviously the phobia is more
magnified the deeper the feelings are. I often claim that this is
because I've been hurt many times in the past in relationships, or
even just by people I was attracted to. But with all due respect,
logically, I don't think that I've been hurt any more than most
people. I wonder if this is perhaps some form of a social phobia. All
I know is if I get around someone that I'm starting to feel attracted
to, or have been attracted to, I feel very panicked, just like I do
when I get around balloons or crickets. It's irrelevant whether or not
I have contact with the crush. Also, I'm mildly autistic, so I wonder
if there's some kind of connection with this "attraction phobia."