Good Morning and Happy July 5th!



I make some references my HP (God) so if that offends you, I apologize.  Thanks!



I have had a few things happen lately that made me feel rejected and really hurt

me.  Are my feelings valid?  Yes, but can they be validated, hard to say. 

Anyways...  I have felt rejected since Hud is not signing my sales contract (I

need to keep in mind they are not signing any in MN right now, so it's just not

me).  I have not spoken to my brother in 3 years due to some bad feelings

feelings between us.  On Friday he send me an e-mail titled "how come you aren't

dead yet" and it went on to say that he couldn't wait for me to die and rot so

he could piss on my grave.  That really hurts and that has been the message I

have been getting from him for 3 years.  (I need to keep in mind what we have

both been through and that he might not be mentally healthy due to history and

drug use).  My son of course gives me rejection on a daily basis (yup, he is a

teenager now!)   I took my son to the cities to a skate park this weekend for

his birthday.  I tried to connect with friends up there and was rejected.  These

had been my best friends for years.  (Right, these were best friends when I

drank, now apparently I am nothing to them, that hurts, but that's okay.)



So my son had to acolyte this morning at church.  I was upset that of course he

would be scheduled for the holiday weekend and the 8am service no less!  How

selfish right?  Imagine my suprise when the sermon was about rejection!  I won't

go into a lot of details, but wow, did it make me feel better!  Imagine, my HP

was also rejected and hurt and kept going so be so completely rejected so that I

could be forgiven and forgive those who have rejected me?  It was really

powerful and put a lot of things in perspective for me.  Just another way of my

HP working to guide me!



Another thing I took away is that I need to be aware of rejecting others and be

aware of how it might hurt them.  When my son wants my attention, I need to be

there or if my brother needs help at some point, I need to offer help and not

rejection.  When I drank I rejected family, jobs, etc without a care and I need

to care now.  I also know that I reject things that I have resentments agains

and I need to remember to hand over those resentments.  They are no good for

anyone.  Rejection hurts and I don't want to cause hurt to others.  I hope we

can all offer smiles and acknowledgements to those we care about and those who

need it.



Thanks all for being there and for not rejecting me.  Have a great day all, I'm

smiling at you!!



Tori



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Your feelings sound valid at this moment in your life.  Please do not drink over

them.  God never ever rejects you so turn to Him and feel His love today.  It is

there for all of us. 

 

Lori



--- On Sun, 7/5/09, Tori Van Overbeke <torisvo@...> wrote:





From: Tori Van Overbeke <torisvo@...>

Subject: [TwelveStepSoulFood4 theSpirit] Rejections

To: "twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit"

<twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com>

Date: Sunday, July 5, 2009, 11:02 AM

















Good Morning and Happy July 5th!



I make some references my HP (God) so if that offends you, I apologize. Thanks!



I have had a few things happen lately that made me feel rejected and really hurt

me. Are my feelings valid? Yes, but can they be validated, hard to say.

Anyways... I have felt rejected since Hud is not signing my sales contract (I

need to keep in mind they are not signing any in MN right now, so it's just not

me). I have not spoken to my brother in 3 years due to some bad feelings

feelings between us. On Friday he send me an e-mail titled "how come you aren't

dead yet" and it went on to say that he couldn't wait for me to die and rot so

he could piss on my grave. That really hurts and that has been the message I

have been getting from him for 3 years. (I need to keep in mind what we have

both been through and that he might not be mentally healthy due to history and

drug use). My son of course gives me rejection on a daily basis (yup, he is a

teenager now!) I took my son to the cities to a skate park this weekend for his

birthday. I tried to connect with

  friends up there and was rejected. These had been my best friends for years.

(Right, these were best friends when I drank, now apparently I am nothing to

them, that hurts, but that's okay.)



So my son had to acolyte this morning at church. I was upset that of course he

would be scheduled for the holiday weekend and the 8am service no less! How

selfish right? Imagine my suprise when the sermon was about rejection! I won't

go into a lot of details, but wow, did it make me feel better! Imagine, my HP

was also rejected and hurt and kept going so be so completely rejected so that I

could be forgiven and forgive those who have rejected me? It was really powerful

and put a lot of things in perspective for me. Just another way of my HP working

to guide me!



Another thing I took away is that I need to be aware of rejecting others and be

aware of how it might hurt them. When my son wants my attention, I need to be

there or if my brother needs help at some point, I need to offer help and not

rejection. When I drank I rejected family, jobs, etc without a care and I need

to care now. I also know that I reject things that I have resentments agains and

I need to remember to hand over those resentments. They are no good for anyone.

Rejection hurts and I don't want to cause hurt to others. I hope we can all

offer smiles and acknowledgements to those we care about and those who need it.



Thanks all for being there and for not rejecting me. Have a great day all, I'm

smiling at you!!



Tori



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tori hi my name is dana and i am a greatful recovering alcholic and addict

rejection is a funny thing and it does make you think of all the rejection that

i once threw out there in my hay  making days but there is not much you can do

when the people you used to hang out with reject us that's because like some of

my ex friends think that i think i am better them  in one way i am im not using

i keep money in my pockect and i am not thier flunky  any more so that doesnt

bother me but then there are some that are happy for me and have even choose to

follow me in soberity because they see the perks of being clean as far as kids

go mine have accepted the fact that yes i was a messed up person back then but

today they have thier mom back as far as your brother give him to your hp and

ask that he humble him and change his way of thinking it does work prayer

changes but for you  keep being and doing what you are for you we have to

remember who is number one today good luck and god bless



--- In twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com, "Tori Van Overbeke"

<torisvo@...> wrote:

>

> Good Morning and Happy July 5th!

>

> I make some references my HP (God) so if that offends you, I apologize. 

Thanks!

>

> I have had a few things happen lately that made me feel rejected and really

hurt me.  Are my feelings valid?  Yes, but can they be validated, hard to say. 

Anyways...  I have felt rejected since Hud is not signing my sales contract (I

need to keep in mind they are not signing any in MN right now, so it's just not

me).  I have not spoken to my brother in 3 years due to some bad feelings

feelings between us.  On Friday he send me an e-mail titled "how come you aren't

dead yet" and it went on to say that he couldn't wait for me to die and rot so

he could piss on my grave.  That really hurts and that has been the message I

have been getting from him for 3 years.  (I need to keep in mind what we have

both been through and that he might not be mentally healthy due to history and

drug use).  My son of course gives me rejection on a daily basis (yup, he is a

teenager now!)   I took my son to the cities to a skate park this weekend for

his birthday.  I tried to connect with friends up there and was rejected.  These

had been my best friends for years.  (Right, these were best friends when I

drank, now apparently I am nothing to them, that hurts, but that's okay.)

>

> So my son had to acolyte this morning at church.  I was upset that of course

he would be scheduled for the holiday weekend and the 8am service no less!  How

selfish right?  Imagine my suprise when the sermon was about rejection!  I won't

go into a lot of details, but wow, did it make me feel better!  Imagine, my HP

was also rejected and hurt and kept going so be so completely rejected so that I

could be forgiven and forgive those who have rejected me?  It was really

powerful and put a lot of things in perspective for me.  Just another way of my

HP working to guide me!

>

> Another thing I took away is that I need to be aware of rejecting others and

be aware of how it might hurt them.  When my son wants my attention, I need to

be there or if my brother needs help at some point, I need to offer help and not

rejection.  When I drank I rejected family, jobs, etc without a care and I need

to care now.  I also know that I reject things that I have resentments agains

and I need to remember to hand over those resentments.  They are no good for

anyone.  Rejection hurts and I don't want to cause hurt to others.  I hope we

can all offer smiles and acknowledgements to those we care about and those who

need it.

>

> Thanks all for being there and for not rejecting me.  Have a great day all,

I'm smiling at you!!

>

> Tori

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been removed]

>