Admitted powerlessness over addiction, life is unmanageable.



The first step evidence was absolutely obvious and I had to understand that

the first principle I had to embrace was  honesty, simply admitting I had a

problem. As I worked this step and embraced it I then came to understand

that surrender is the operative action required to get through this step for

me. Two surrenders became apparent. First, I had to surrender to the fact

that left to my own will, recovery would be impossible. Once I was able to

embrace that surrender the next surrender was to the program. My first

sponsor saw surrender in me at about 3 months into the process but I

honestly didn't recognize it. I did a first step three times before moving

on to a second step. The first time I had wrote the first step I paused

(didn't finish promptly) and found that I had to revisit it from the

beginning. The third time I had to write a first step was as a result of a

relapse 6 months into the recovery process. I had been able to get to 6

months many times in the past and this became my thresh hold. I made a point

to myself that I was not going to pick up a key chain until I reached the 9

month key chain and it was very humbling to sit through 9 months of waiting

until I got to the elusive 9 months. Once I got there, there was no turning

back. TFLMS. Stan.









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Precious Stan thanks for sharing your ESH



--- On Mon, 1/12/09, Stan Orner <stanorner@...> wrote:



From: Stan Orner <stanorner@...>

Subject: [TwelveStepSoulFood4 theSpirit] FW: First Step

To: twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com

Date: Monday, January 12, 2009, 12:49 AM













Admitted powerlessness over addiction, life is unmanageable.



The first step evidence was absolutely obvious and I had to understand that

the first principle I had to embrace was honesty, simply admitting I had a

problem. As I worked this step and embraced it I then came to understand

that surrender is the operative action required to get through this step for

me. Two surrenders became apparent. First, I had to surrender to the fact

that left to my own will, recovery would be impossible. Once I was able to

embrace that surrender the next surrender was to the program. My first

sponsor saw surrender in me at about 3 months into the process but I

honestly didn't recognize it. I did a first step three times before moving

on to a second step. The first time I had wrote the first step I paused

(didn't finish promptly) and found that I had to revisit it from the

beginning. The third time I had to write a first step was as a result of a

relapse 6 months into the recovery process. I had been able to get to 6

months many times in the past and this became my thresh hold. I made a point

to myself that I was not going to pick up a key chain until I reached the 9

month key chain and it was very humbling to sit through 9 months of waiting

until I got to the elusive 9 months. Once I got there, there was no turning

back. TFLMS. Stan.



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