>From: sarah edgmon <sarfree2000@...> >Reply-To: twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com >To: twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com >Subject: Re: [TwelveStepSoulFood4 theSpirit] Help?and thanks! >Date: Sat, 31 Jul 2004 11:36:18 -0700 (PDT) > >Lisa > > > >I love you. And you took the 1st step by asking for help and that takes alot. I took from your past that you have been in recovery in the past. So go back and do step 1. NOBODY can change the past yet we can learn form it and not go back and do the samething over again. You need to quit beating yourself up. Pray to your HP read. And don't make any promises. Just for today YOU DON'T HAVE TO USE. And in time all of your relationship will get better it is going to take time for the trust to be built  again. And for being in touble with the law I will pray for you,all you can do is stay cleaning through it. Go to all of the meetings you can. Tell them you need to be around recovery and people who are working a program. And most of all  this is a "WE" program. I BELIVE IN YOU. > > > >                                             In NA Love, > >                                              Sarah > > >lisa d <lisa_billy02@...> wrote: >It's interesting ,  I have been reading feedback from this site from over a year yet NEVER thought of writing in or responding.  However, today I admit more than ever I need people in recovery, I want people in recovery and in time hope to contribute to someone else's recovery.  But as for today....I am now working on 24 hours....why?  Wanted to check out - end it the softer easier way - for who!!  Good old selfish me!!  What about my mom that has stood by me trying and lying for the past 12 years.  My "sponsor" for the past 4 years, yet I don't really know if she is anymore as I haven't asked her I am just assuming she will be there again! My friends that I have pulled the wool over their eyes ....Why would they want any part of me!  I know I heard it in a meeting today.  We are not bad people just sick  Well obviously I haven't even been able to grip the "disease" part of me....... > >Well do all good things come to an end???!!   guess that matters what you consider "good".  Well gang I am now officially unemployed......I know poor me what did I expect....what has always happen in the past NOTHING.  Is this my bottom?  Does this mean I have to grow up?  I am now in trouble with the law...So what got away with it.......once, twice, three times the scary part is probably a couple more.  So I went to a meeting today, last night, YET I don't feel any better.  Okay I know reality check,   poof and it's all over   Not.  Well I do need help!!  Where do I start.  HONESTY!!  So do I review everything that I wasn't honest about?  I love what Linda said last night "even God can't change the past"   Well I am starting to try and express how I am feeling and to anyone that will listen. >                                           NO >I don >'t want to be selfish, self centered, self motivated,  How do I get out of myself? and into recovery? > >Signed Lisa D > > > > > > > > > > >--------------------------------- >Take the effort out of being organized with MSN® Calendar. MSN Premium: Join now and get the first two months FREE* >Yahoo! Groups SponsorADVERTISEMENT > > >--------------------------------- >Yahoo! Groups Links > >    To visit your group on the web, go to: >http://groups.yahoo.com/group/twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit/ > >    To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: >twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com > >    Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service. > > > >--------------------------------- >Do you Yahoo!? >New and Improved Yahoo! Mail - Send 10MB messages!