tori hi my name is dana and i am a greatful recovering alcholic and addict
rejection is a funny thing and it does make you think of all the rejection that
i once threw out there in my hay making days but there is not much you can do
when the people you used to hang out with reject us that's because like some of
my ex friends think that i think i am better them in one way i am im not using
i keep money in my pockect and i am not thier flunky any more so that doesnt
bother me but then there are some that are happy for me and have even choose to
follow me in soberity because they see the perks of being clean as far as kids
go mine have accepted the fact that yes i was a messed up person back then but
today they have thier mom back as far as your brother give him to your hp and
ask that he humble him and change his way of thinking it does work prayer
changes but for you keep being and doing what you are for you we have to
remember who is number one today good luck and god bless

--- In twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com, "Tori Van Overbeke"
<torisvo@...> wrote:
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> Good Morning and Happy July 5th!
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> I make some references my HP (God) so if that offends you, I apologize.
Thanks!
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> I have had a few things happen lately that made me feel rejected and really
hurt me. Are my feelings valid? Yes, but can they be validated, hard to say.
Anyways... I have felt rejected since Hud is not signing my sales contract (I
need to keep in mind they are not signing any in MN right now, so it's just not
me). I have not spoken to my brother in 3 years due to some bad feelings
feelings between us. On Friday he send me an e-mail titled "how come you aren't
dead yet" and it went on to say that he couldn't wait for me to die and rot so
he could piss on my grave. That really hurts and that has been the message I
have been getting from him for 3 years. (I need to keep in mind what we have
both been through and that he might not be mentally healthy due to history and
drug use). My son of course gives me rejection on a daily basis (yup, he is a
teenager now!) I took my son to the cities to a skate park this weekend for
his birthday. I tried to connect with friends up there and was rejected. These
had been my best friends for years. (Right, these were best friends when I
drank, now apparently I am nothing to them, that hurts, but that's okay.)
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> So my son had to acolyte this morning at church. I was upset that of course
he would be scheduled for the holiday weekend and the 8am service no less! How
selfish right? Imagine my suprise when the sermon was about rejection! I won't
go into a lot of details, but wow, did it make me feel better! Imagine, my HP
was also rejected and hurt and kept going so be so completely rejected so that I
could be forgiven and forgive those who have rejected me? It was really
powerful and put a lot of things in perspective for me. Just another way of my
HP working to guide me!
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> Another thing I took away is that I need to be aware of rejecting others and
be aware of how it might hurt them. When my son wants my attention, I need to
be there or if my brother needs help at some point, I need to offer help and not
rejection. When I drank I rejected family, jobs, etc without a care and I need
to care now. I also know that I reject things that I have resentments agains
and I need to remember to hand over those resentments. They are no good for
anyone. Rejection hurts and I don't want to cause hurt to others. I hope we
can all offer smiles and acknowledgements to those we care about and those who
need it.
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> Thanks all for being there and for not rejecting me. Have a great day all,
I'm smiling at you!!
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> Tori
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