Your feelings sound valid at this moment in your life.  Please do not drink over
them.  God never ever rejects you so turn to Him and feel His love today.  It is
there for all of us. 
 
Lori

--- On Sun, 7/5/09, Tori Van Overbeke <torisvo@...> wrote:


From: Tori Van Overbeke <torisvo@...>
Subject: [TwelveStepSoulFood4 theSpirit] Rejections
To: "twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit"
<twelvestepsoulfood4thespirit@yahoogroups.com>
Date: Sunday, July 5, 2009, 11:02 AM








Good Morning and Happy July 5th!

I make some references my HP (God) so if that offends you, I apologize. Thanks!

I have had a few things happen lately that made me feel rejected and really hurt
me. Are my feelings valid? Yes, but can they be validated, hard to say.
Anyways... I have felt rejected since Hud is not signing my sales contract (I
need to keep in mind they are not signing any in MN right now, so it's just not
me). I have not spoken to my brother in 3 years due to some bad feelings
feelings between us. On Friday he send me an e-mail titled "how come you aren't
dead yet" and it went on to say that he couldn't wait for me to die and rot so
he could piss on my grave. That really hurts and that has been the message I
have been getting from him for 3 years. (I need to keep in mind what we have
both been through and that he might not be mentally healthy due to history and
drug use). My son of course gives me rejection on a daily basis (yup, he is a
teenager now!) I took my son to the cities to a skate park this weekend for his
birthday. I tried to connect with
friends up there and was rejected. These had been my best friends for years.
(Right, these were best friends when I drank, now apparently I am nothing to
them, that hurts, but that's okay.)

So my son had to acolyte this morning at church. I was upset that of course he
would be scheduled for the holiday weekend and the 8am service no less! How
selfish right? Imagine my suprise when the sermon was about rejection! I won't
go into a lot of details, but wow, did it make me feel better! Imagine, my HP
was also rejected and hurt and kept going so be so completely rejected so that I
could be forgiven and forgive those who have rejected me? It was really powerful
and put a lot of things in perspective for me. Just another way of my HP working
to guide me!

Another thing I took away is that I need to be aware of rejecting others and be
aware of how it might hurt them. When my son wants my attention, I need to be
there or if my brother needs help at some point, I need to offer help and not
rejection. When I drank I rejected family, jobs, etc without a care and I need
to care now. I also know that I reject things that I have resentments agains and
I need to remember to hand over those resentments. They are no good for anyone.
Rejection hurts and I don't want to cause hurt to others. I hope we can all
offer smiles and acknowledgements to those we care about and those who need it.

Thanks all for being there and for not rejecting me. Have a great day all, I'm
smiling at you!!

Tori

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