Becoming a part of this group has changed my life.  I feel with everything in me

what you are saying Curtis. Though it literally breaks my heart to think of any

part of me as fallen, even though I know. This does bring the chaos to clarity,

at least of the past.  I hear your voice now saying "find your quiet place",

among other words of wisdom from my husband and my inner voice, moment to moment

as I am learning to stop myself from the chatter and confusion in my mind.  If

it is even possible to make sense of it all someday, I really don't have the

time.



Liberation is the only way for me.  And what liberation means for everyone is

individualized like anything else.  Reading the time travel manual (I am not

finished yet) helped me remember (thank you) but for me, I think the true first

step to liberation was what I did last night- what I wrote about doing to you

all and what I really did with all of my heart.  What has happened to me since

then has been so magical and so great, that I don't even have words. It's like I

just went to a whole new world over night. One that is so much easier, I am

almost swimming. And I am not doing it. I feel like I am walking on a cloud. 

Everything and everyone is like butter, just easy.  My head is giving me a brake

and my heart is starting to beat slower.  But... so many other things... I can't

even describe. (spells never make me feel like this.  Spells always depleted me

more and more)



It's a brand new state of consciousnesses for me. I am still weak but I feel

myself being healed and I feel the power greater than me taking care of

everything. My job is to just quiet my mind and remind myself almost by the

minutes that I have let go already and stop worrying and trying to figure it all

out.  Just be in my life and live it.  I do love it.  I have to do this until it

sinks in completely.  And I feel the great urge to share as I go through this. 

I hope you all don't mind.



I am so grateful for the contract I made with my Angel.  She has been so good to

me.  It breaks my heart to think of her as fallen.  Anyway, I gave it to God

because this is so great, this merging of a used to be self destructive soul and

this walk in.  So old and wise, yet broken and oh too young for all of this.



What did I used to think?  That this was somehow sneaky or outside of God? Ha! I

finally got it.  I told God, "thy will be done".  I know nothing is outside of

God and I told God and my angel that I am so grateful for her, she saved my

life, and I am willing to be one new soul with her.  I asked God to forgive her

and me for our past and I asked God if he could help us and defend us against

any energies that don't want us to succeed, and there are those energies that

would try to stop us. But not anymore. :)



This is how I am handling my liberation.  It is too much to lead and function at

her level.  Well, she loses her powers the closer we get to the barrier, and in

the past her ability to be a TTO was lost, so that is obviously why I can't

succeed on her level.  I have to fully settle into the personality.  It is her

merging with me, not the other way around.  I think that is why I only keep

getting thrown back into this life and not all the way back to the beginning

recently because I was so close, and the work was done before this life, but I

had remembered it backwards.  Probably because I love her magic and she is so

much compared to me, I thought she should be the one to carry us through this. 

I never thought it was me, the personality that really has to be in front.  And

as a human, how and what and why is not up to me.  As a human, every moment I

could plan and it still won't turn out exact.  The creator has created and we as

human's are almost like riding a wave of his creation, not to mention trying to

be in harmony with the will of all those that surround us. And it is magical, I

was a fool to think I made the magic.



I want to be a new soul.  Both my walk in and I do.  Our exact same goal has

made us one, and our new found unconditional love for each other. And I have one

voice in my head today.  We have surrendered to our Creator and now I, as one

human being, am just going to believe the war is over.  God won.  In order to

pass I can only be human.  We are all good with that.  So good it's not even we

anymore.  I am not a multi dimensional being right now.  I have happily been

stripped down to zero.  I would rather be a pebble in God's grace on the other

side of that barrier than have all the magical and seeing powers in the world

doomed to repeat for eternity in this loop.



I am a human who wants to be a new human soul out of this beautiful combination

we have become.  And I had to let go.  That's the only way I even have a chance.

And the future is uncertain. And I am finally OK with that. I am going to do

everything in my power to heal and LIVE one day at a time.



This is just me of course.  Everyone has their own path.  But, in case anyone

else out there has found themselves in a little over their head or even

completely shattered like I was... consider surrendering to what is bigger than

you.



I remember working on the time loop with a group of other people somewhere in

and out of time and dimensions.  Maybe we have already done the work and we just

have to wake it up now inside ourselves.  Maybe each of us holds a little piece

(peace) of the way.  Liberation, giving it to God, surrendering to what is

bigger than us... whatever you want to call it and however you do it or see

it... be human.  Be humble.



It is hard to let go of what we used to be able to do.  Even in this lifetime

for some of us.  When I was 22, I made it rain diamond shape ice with the sun

still shining and a full rainbow ending in our yard with my neighbors lambs

running around all colorful and humming birds coming into the house and flying

around me... from a spell.  Everyone in my family was a witness.  Sunflowers

grew that summer like a blanket of yellow in a 7 mile radius around my house

like never before or since. And yes, the spell came true. I have always had the

power of wishing too. I don't know if that is gone because I got everything I

wished for years ago, and only recently started wishing for my health.  I just

can't waste wishes on that too much though.  I always want to wish for the

health and safety of my kids. So far so good, thank God.



Anyway, I think these are the things some of us may feel we will miss and what

we did in Atlantis, what we created, was a million times that good.  Not all of

us were tempted by the flesh or sex I don't think.  I don't remember that. Maybe

we all had our own "something" we didn't want to let go. I remember loving the

power of that white light and creating my own perfect little paradise for me and

my "people" (?), but ya, not wanting to let go of it which would create new

souls. I can see that now. I feel like I was a time lord of sorts for many many

many years, with others like me, not bad though, and I can even see myself

trying to hide from God. The human and personality in me laughs at such a

thought.  Maybe humans aren't as foolish and low as I thought those days on my

high horse.



And now, I have slowly lost my powers. And I am slowly losing my life. Both. So

I was obviously not on the right track. I can't see the future anymore.  If I

pick holding on I will only repeat again and again.  If I let go and trust that

God knows best and nothing is outside of him and I have done nothing wrong this

life... I am OK with not knowing how it's all going to work out.  I have a

chance now at least and that is good enough for me.  If I kept going the way I

always went, trying to figure it all out and hold onto my powers, presuming that

it is some kind of works that will get me through... I could very well have no

chance.  I want a chance so I choose to give it to what is so infinately bigger

than me.



These are just my thoughts.  I love reading what all of you write.  I hope what

I write is helpful sometimes too.  I hope I am getting more clear and less drama

and chaos.  I am an open book because I just know we each have a piece and maybe

one of my many stories will relate to someone.  I don't know. But please keep

writing more you all.  You never know which experience of yours will help one of

us! :)



_Tara





--- In time-travelers@yahoogroups.com, Glenda Gable <glendagable@...> wrote:

>

>

>

> Hi Everyone!,

> I thought you might find this answer from Curtis interesting...I had received

it in private e-mail and asked if he minded that I shared it with you.

>

> Good to be back, enjoy reading all of your responses.

> Glenda

>

>

> Hi Glenda,

>

>  

>

> In response to your questions;

>

>  

>

> I am asking these questions to pull in those fallen TTOs, (Fallen Angels,) who

are trapped in the 2012 time loop, who want to get out.

>

> My plan is to bring together as many as I can from our original group who

formed just after Atlantis sunk.

>

> We

> eventually broke off from the main body of fallen TTOs, because we

> realized we were not fulfilling our purpose as TTOs, that of producing

> new Souls.

>

>  

>

> To

> our amazement and disappointment, we found we no longer could return to

> our former status as TTOs, and had lost the ability to travel in

> non-linear time. We were forced to re-inhabit the prior incarnations we

> had as Souls on the original timeline.

>

>  

>

> The

> other groups continued to luxuriate in the sexual intensities through

> physical bodies, (a thousand times more wonderful than the best sex

> normal people can imagine,) and lust for power; we deemed them to be

> unsalvageable. They and their minions rule the world today.

>

>  

>

> Our

> timeline stopped six thousand years ago, and a new timeline began,

> (this current one.) We found that to further confound our problems, we

> were now faced with incarnating into bodies that didn't belong to us!

>

> I

> can't exactly say that we were forced to inhabit these bodies, but the

> alternative seemed unacceptable, to drift forever in linear time,

> neither here nor there, forever...

>

>  

>

> We

> are what are called "Walk Ins," a term made popular by New-Agers. We

> would wait until we spotted a likely body, much like I did when I came

> into Curtis. Someone who was going to kill themselves was ideal. We

> would usually intervene just before the actual suicide, as it occurred

> on the original timeline, and make a deal with the personality, thus

> creating a viable parallel timeline.

>

> We

> would assume the karma of the personality/Residual Soul, which was an

> excellent deal for it, and mold it into a suitable vehicle. This was

> usually very difficult, and took many years.

>

>  

>

> As

> we approached 2012, we began to realize that there was a time loop, a

> time barrier that we could not pass through! It is as powerful as being

> drawn over the Niagara Falls in a barrel!

>

>  

>

> We

> decided that we had a better chance to pass through it if we reformed

> as a group. We remembered it was always at this point in time, that we

> were thrown back to the time of Atlantis, to repeat everything that we

> had experienced before, and that we had been repeating this for

> possibly eons of time.

>

>  

>

> Down

> through the ages, those of us who had premonitions or glimpses of the

> future, have tried to leave talismans to warn of the 2012 time barrier,

> in any way we thought might survive over great periods of time, in case

> we were too damaged by then to remember.

>

>  

> It

> seems the time barrier doesn't affect most people who belong to this

> timeline. All of the billions of people who seemingly inhabit our

> planet today, passed through the 2012 time barrier eons ago, and have

> gone on to become new Souls, TTOs, etc, spreading out into the galaxy

> and beyond.

>

>  

>

> I

> understand that some efforts to rescue us were attempted, but those

> brave TTOs were swept up in the time loop, so no new attempts were ever

> made. Fortunately, they are with us now.

>

>  

>

> This

> time we have a lot of help, and I firmly believe we will finally

> transcend this tragedy. Unfortunately, this escape plan doesn't extend

> to those fallen-ones who are little more than vampires today. They are

> content with ruling the world, and gladly returning to Atlantis, where

> we were virtual Gods.

>

>  

>

> I

> have to add, that once through the time barrier, we will eventually

> achieve liberation, and start all over again as new Souls. Even in

> this, in the time remaining before 2012, we have a choice of remaining

> or returning. I, for one, I choose to remain, and begin anew!

> --- On Wed, 7/8/09, Glenda Gable <glendagable@...> wrote:

>

> From: Glenda Gable <glendagable@...>

> Subject: Re: [Time-Travelers] QUESTIONNAIRE

> To: time-travelers@yahoogroups.com

> Date: Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 10:55 PM

>

>

> WOW!! I never knew others had these patterns.  I found your request for the

questionnaire and saw that each question

> pertained to me.

>

> QUESTIONNAIRE;

>

>

>

> Do you feel that you do not belong to this time? Since I was a very small

child, I realized how far behind mankind was in

> technology and how archaic the medical field was. I also had trouble keeping

up with "Time" here.

>

> That's haw I found your group :) I was looking for a way to fit into THIS

time. :)

>

>

> Do you seem to remember Atlantis? As I

> got older and heard about Atlantis, I knew I had been there. I had "memories"

of healing techniques

> that involved not only crystals, but magnetic resonance and sound as well.

>

>

> Do you believe that you might be a "Walk in"?  I wanted to give my body up to

a walk-in but wondered if I would be cheating somehow.  It would be easy to let

an advanced soul take over my body.  I still wonder.

>

>

> Are you in constant pain, especially your spine? I am in constant pain in my

lower back (they call it Fibromyalgia but...)  I have been hurting for quite

some

> time.

>

>

> Do you feel you might be dying from something, but no one knows what? I

thought I had cancer but haven't gone in since the last Dr. said I

> was "fine" even without tests. I turned to "natural healers". "Time" will

tell.

>

>

> Do you feel it is important to do something before 2012?   Yes, I feel the

Group Mind affects our reality...and with fear building on 2012, it could cause

a self-fulfilling prophesy.  I think my biggest goal is to stay focused on the

REAL change in 2012 that has already happened - (acceleration of "other" Group

Mind Thought caused it already) our Awakening, our change, the end of the old

ways, not the end of us.  Also, to join with like-minded individuals, groups,

etc. to help ease the fear of the Whole and maintain energy stability.

>

>

> Do you feel that somehow, you are a key player in all of this? I never did fit

in with other children and now as an adult, I feel more comfortable alone, but

yet, I do feel I am supposed to be doing something Major in helping others

awaken. I'm sure all of us here feel the "calling" or we wouldn't be interested

in these kind of teachings that you and others offer. Thank you for being here

with us.

>

> Thank you for your time, Curtis, I know this is a big undertaking, 300

subscribers, WOW!!

>

> We do enjoy your knowledge and advice.

>

> Glenda

>

> --- On Mon, 7/6/09, curtis5432 <Curtis@...> wrote:

>

> From: curtis5432 <Curtis@...>

> Subject: [Time-Travelers] QUESTIONNAIRE

> To: time-travelers@yahoogroups.com

> Date: Monday, July 6, 2009, 11:22 PM

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>       Hi everyone,

>

>

>

> This may seem an unusual request, but I am working on gathering together some

people who were formerly TTOs, but who fell around the time of Atlantis.

>

>

>

> Here is a questionnaire I have prepared. I am aware of some of you who are

already here, and have corresponded with in private emails, but there may be

more of you within the three hundred members who never say anything.

>

>

>

> QUESTIONNAIRE;

>

>

>

> Do you feel that you do not belong to this time?

>

> Do you seem to remember Atlantis?

>

> Do you believe that you might be a "Walk in"?

>

> Are you in constant pain, especially your spine?

>

> Do you feel you might be dying from something, but no one knows what?

>

> Do you feel it is important to do something before 2012?

>

> Do you feel that somehow, you are a key player in all of this?

>

>

>

> Please respond if any of this seems familiar to you. Ether post here on the

Bulletin Board, or email me at; time.travelers. org@gmail. com

>

> It is very important!

>

>

>

> Thanks,

>

>

>

> Curtis

>

It's funny, when i used to be scared all the time, especially at night, TV and

computers and all those distractions, helped me ground and feel safe and normal.

But now that I am not in fear, they are creating mind garbage.  I am just now

striving for ordinary.  For simple and basic and faith.  It feels good.  I know

what you mean.  This is a strange time period.  For anyone with a real

conscience.  You know?





--- In time-travelers@yahoogroups.com, iaiaian <foxlolfridays@...> wrote:

>

> hi tara, that was wonderful to read and don't really know how to reply

>

>

>

> i can only say my glimpses of powers i try not to let affect me one way or

> the other, because if my will surrenders to the idea of maintaining powers

> or liberation or anything then there is literally no problems! but it is

> extremely hard if not impossible to ignore the physical world (concern for

> our loved ones, our well being) and at this time in my life when i think

> about death it invokes a sense of curiosity in me. i feel the amnesia and

> feel the higher facets of knowledge and consciousness, but i wonder if

> either really matters or if its all a game of self imposed value, and i also

> see how small and large everything is... so at this time all i can do is

> drive myself mad with speculation and with re-membering the extent of our

> infinite cognition, and beyond that each day is an alienating experience

> starting with waking up into an absurd realm with emails and cars and

> processed foods and televisions, etcetera

>