It's funny, when i used to be scared all the time, especially at night, TV and
computers and all those distractions, helped me ground and feel safe and normal.
But now that I am not in fear, they are creating mind garbage. I am just now
striving for ordinary. For simple and basic and faith. It feels good. I know
what you mean. This is a strange time period. For anyone with a real
conscience. You know?


--- In time-travelers@yahoogroups.com, iaiaian <foxlolfridays@...> wrote:
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> hi tara, that was wonderful to read and don't really know how to reply
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> i can only say my glimpses of powers i try not to let affect me one way or
> the other, because if my will surrenders to the idea of maintaining powers
> or liberation or anything then there is literally no problems! but it is
> extremely hard if not impossible to ignore the physical world (concern for
> our loved ones, our well being) and at this time in my life when i think
> about death it invokes a sense of curiosity in me. i feel the amnesia and
> feel the higher facets of knowledge and consciousness, but i wonder if
> either really matters or if its all a game of self imposed value, and i also
> see how small and large everything is... so at this time all i can do is
> drive myself mad with speculation and with re-membering the extent of our
> infinite cognition, and beyond that each day is an alienating experience
> starting with waking up into an absurd realm with emails and cars and
> processed foods and televisions, etcetera
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