hi tara, that was wonderful to read and don't really know how to reply



i can only say my glimpses of powers i try not to let affect me one way or the other, because if my will surrenders to the idea of maintaining powers or liberation or anything then there is literally no problems! but it is extremely hard if not impossible to ignore the physical world (concern for our loved ones, our well being) and at this time in my life when i think about death it invokes a sense of curiosity in me. i feel the amnesia and feel the higher facets of knowledge and consciousness, but i wonder if either really matters or if its all a game of self imposed value, and i also see how small and large everything is... so at this time all i can do is drive myself mad with speculation and with re-membering the extent of our infinite cognition, and beyond that each day is an alienating experience starting with waking up into an absurd realm with emails and cars and processed foods and televisions, etcetera