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I don't feel that I belong to this time and nor do I feel that it belongs to me. Rather there is an emerging sense that everything is connected and it just so happens that this is what is currently being experienced...
Do you seem to remember Atlantis?
I remember as a child when I was first introduced to "sport". I was so excited, but when I came to play it - it was nothing like i had imagined. I felt that "catch" used to be so much more involved when I had last played it! Here (during this time) it was being experienced only on the physical plane - in my imaginings catch was about the group energy and the different bodies playing together. Ah well...
Do you believe that you might be a "Walk in"?
Not sure what a walk in is supposed to be. I know that in my childhood I knew exactly what I was here for and I could see into my "future" and all the events that were going to happen. Any questions I had, I would just have to ask and they would be answered. For example I knew that I was going to break my leg in my life and decided to start hobbling around in order to prevent this from happening. There was nothing wrong with my leg. I wanted to create a form of communication that would pass through time to warn myself in the future event. If I did anything with my left I would have to do the same thing with my right - I needed to stay balanced! I kept coming up with ingenious ways to try and send a message to my future self about what I knew, because I knew I would pass through substitution and needed a way of remind myself or re-awakening myself. Instead of have a linear memory, my memory works a lot from places - so memories are grouped in a particular feeling I had when I was in a certain place and so I would stack a message into this feeling somehow- I'm still trying to decode them! Same for events - they seem to have triggers in them...
Are you in constant pain, especially your spine?
No.
Do you feel you might be dying from something, but no one knows what?
No.
Do you feel it is important to do something before 2012?
The whole idea of 2012 really got my juices flowing when I heard about it almost 12 years ago. It was also at the time of discovering the internet. I also have memories of asking about 2012 when I was 8 . It came up in a conversation with my higher self or TTO or whatever it was that I was in contact with back then. The answers I received were so foreign to me - I remember being reassured that everything was ok. I asked why people weren't alarmed by it? I cant remember all the answers...
Do you feel that somehow, you are a key player in all of this?
It depends upon which "this" you are talking about... to say I caused this, that and the other seems a trite pointless - life is such a mysterious game and the goalposts are constantly shifting... Karma is a trigger word, but it holds many explanations. There are parts of myself that feel responsible and are held accountable by other parts that want to blame...
This life does feel like its reaching some sort of graduation... like the last year of primary school when you know everybody before you leave for a bigger school where you know no-one and you use you pre-existing relationships with people and cast them onto the new people you meet - trying to fit them into your pattern of who all these new people are... trying to create a reasonable world out of a charmingly chaotic one... And yet you've been to this new school so many times before! LOL
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