<<Letting out a joy of relief... crying really hard today, but for the first time in a long time, am finally crying happy tears>>  

I have finally found my correct road to take.  I have to call and thank my pcp later this afternoon.  I was regretting my appointment with my psychiatrist, as I didn't want the label of Pycho, or even to be psychanalayzed so to speak.  Well.. I can honestly say my appointment was wonderful !!  This psychiatrist, is where God sent me... to help me with each new day !! 

I learned so many things, during todays session... the main one being, depression after TTP and every other medical condition that ails me.. is a very normal thing.    One of the good parts... is my psychiatrist was an ICU nurse during her schooling, and is very very aware of TTP and its effects and outcomes.   (Oh boy that in itself was a relief)  I went to my appt loaded with the TTP Primer, to explain it to her, so she would understand a few things... Well.. being she is aware of it, she read through the primer, said IT WAS VERY WELL PUT TOGETHER.... (HATS OFF TO KAREN)    

To put one thing she said together, that all of us go through... We have to take our lives before TTP and look at it as a foundation of a "home".  That foundation has crumbled due to a Disaster/Crisis, and it is now time to build a new foundation, so we can build a new home.    (touche'')

For now.. I will see her every two weeks... and she even said that by the time we are done (which will be a while) that she will have helped me figure out the govt system, in which grants can be filed for, to help with the assistance of starting our own TTP Foundation.   That is one of my goals.... is to get our own Foundation going....

I can honestly say I am looking forward to a brighter future... and now with her and the meds, and the love and support I have from all you here... I can maybe find the right road to travel. 

I love each and everyone of you....

Cara