Hi Christine,
Your email reminds me of me about 4-5 years ago. As I said, I have
had tos since 1998. I was told it would get better, which it has,
however, I didn't believe it at the time.
You really need to reach out to a support group of some kind.
How is your relationship? I am not prying, just want to tell you to
get help in all areas of your life. tos affects everything.
I can't imagine having a baby, and dealing with the pain...
Use the chat line as much as you can. It will help.
Catherine