This was posted to the Gateway list, so thought I'd copy it here.

Peace and Hugs,

Steve K

 

The first one I met was named Jim Beam

I couldn't have been more than twelve or thirteen

He's the guy who introduced the whole scene

We laughed a lot…We danced, he sang

But when we got caught, he let me take the blame

Then I heard about this chick

Her name was Mary Jane

She runs with a rough crowd

But she said she'd not the same

"Those guys give drugs a bad name, it's a shame.

They play dirty games but ME? I'm really tame."

Everybody loves Mary but not always right away

I thought she was dull and she thought I was lame

Even when I didn't like her I still thought she was sent from above

Because she introduced me to my very first love.

I never thought I'd fall for a girl

But when I met Crystal,

she changed my whole world

Seductively she danced in her little glass house

With a long last name I couldn't pronounce

Starts with an M and ends with an E

Something like "Methamphetamine??"

Entertaining her guests one by one

My first turn was so much fun

I was desperate for another one

I wanted all her attention!

She brought out the best in me

We had such chemistry, intimacy

So much personality

The next day the thrill went away

I forgot all about Crystal and Mary Jane

The sun came up we went our separate ways

And before too long I decided it was just a phase.

I still thought Crystal was pretty fucking cool

But I was just a little kid in high school

Always open to meet someone new,

I thought "HEY!-

that colorful character Sid could be my friend, too!"

Now this guy Sid had a mind of his own

When we hung out no telling where we would go

Sid was SO FUNNY, he was so down!

Intergalactic space travel without even leaving my town

Sid taught me how to dance and philosophize

And how to fantasize and how to open my eyes

To something bigger than just me and my little world

I no longer felt like a naive little girl,

I had experienced my true self with Sid

I felt fresh and new, "Brain douche" we called it.

He a had a whole crew and they were all mostly the same

Dressed a little different and called by a different name

After a while we too went our separate ways

They just didn't come around,

and when they did they were laced.

Then one day I heard a knock on my door

Guess who? It was Crystal in another form.

I guess she had heard my life was a bore.

She said she wanted to get to know me more.

Some people warned me, they told me watch out

They said she has a shady past I might learn about

Charm you once you might get out alive

But let her charm you twice

And you roll the dice.

They called her homewrecker, even a murderess

But I thought I knew best Cuz I was smarter the rest.

I never could've guessed how fast it progressed.

Now by this time Me and Mary were pretty close

She was there by my side for almost every single dose

She knew all my friends, Sid, Crystal, even Jim

And pretty much got along with each one of them

Things were going well 'til me and Sid got in a fight

I had been warned, "Don't mess with his dark side.

He has a real temper and you'll wanna run and hide."

I didn't see it coming, He left me somewhere all alone

No phone, no way shown, I had to find my own way home,

It was quite a scare, But I finally made it there

Only my soul had been scorned, and left cold and bare

Nothing was ever the same after that

I never fully came back

Sid told everyone about our fight,

And when I saw Mary, I tried to set it right.

Apparently she saw Sid's point of view

And she started treating me that way too!

Even Crystal, my first love acted weird when I came up

She still let me hang around but I got the hunch

It was a matter of time 'til she'd twist my mind

But I still needed her a bunch

She was the only friend I had left

'Cept For Jim

The problem with Jim is he has no class

And sometimes he can be a real pain in the ass

Always embarrassing, acting a clown

But he sure had a way of removing my frown

He lives in the moment and that can be fun

But not when you're trying to get a job done

Just when I thought this scene had run its course

I met Lokey Joe, an older man...

We hit it off and we rolled full force!

Lokey's got a lotta names and he's pretty well-known

Loca coca, booger sugar, blow, yayo

He said he used to run this town before Crystal came around

Lokey knows politicians, executives; he's high-class

And I hate to say it but he kinda lives in the past

I guess the 80's were his Hey Day, so to me he seemed pretty safe.

I knew what to expect, he pretty much came and went

Without too much of a fuss, wasn't much of a bust

Until true to form, yet again I got bored

That's when I met Black, the king thug of all drugs

If you hang around this guy you've pretty much given up

You know he'll fuck you over but you just don't give a fuck

When your lonely enough, its tough- Even bad company'll do

It's almost like you want it more if its bad for you

Surrounded by shells in dark rooms with holes in their arms

So close to death with nothing left but needles, spoons, and lucky
charms

A lighter and some foil, black licorice I smelled

I begged for a chance just once to feel the mellow that they felt

When they told it would kill me I really hoped that it was true.

Sick of lies I wanted to die, there was no other way I knew

Making bad choices and chasing mean voices, what else is there to do?

Fed up with being fucked over and overfed with being fucked up,

I took a hit, and held it in until my face turned blue.

But this was nothing new...

All my friends began to look the same, ashamed and filled with hate,

Is this pathetic life really my pathetic fate?

I really need to talk but I can't think of words to say

Got my board in tow but I'm too dizzy to skate

Pick up my guitar but I'm too fucked up to play

I begin to panic, frantic, scan the bathroom cabinet,

Must be something I can take

To make this feeling go away

Erase these mistakes

Help me not feel fake

On my knees I scream for God to let me die today

Or give me another way. I prayed.

Please take the pain away.

Please take away the shame.

Please give me another life and the courage to live another day.

There's gotta be a better way.

And He said,

"Okay.

Put that shit away TODAY

And prepare to be amazed."

This is how I found NA