hey, i was 4 years old when i was molested. i am 21 now. i think
about it every day. i didn't even tell anyone until last year and
that was just my mom and my sister. but it was just kinda swept
under the rug and they think if ya don't talk about it everything
will be okay. well i am not okay. what happened to me has taken
everything that was ever important to me. i have since then always
had a bad self esteem. i just want to know if anyone wants to talk
about their experience that i won't mind talking about mine. i just
want to be able to get over what happened to me and live my life. i
want to be happy. i think about what happened to me every day and i
have nightmares about it all the time. i have to cry myself to
sleep alot and my husband doesn't have any idea how what happened to
me haunts me. i feel like i give my molester power because i think
about what happened so many times a day and i bet he doesn't even
think about it ever. i bet he doesn't ever stop to think that what
he did destroyed my self worth. anyways, i just hope that maybe
talking to someone that this has happened to also might help me to
atleast stop thinking about it so much. i so wish i could just be
normal and just worry about normal things. instead i think about
this 24/7 and cry every night. i want to be happy again...and maybe
i can help someone out too.

thanks, moonstar1220@...