So how are you doing since we last talked? I have a
friend whos family is going through the same thing,
and it makes me think of you. So let me know how ur
doing see ya!
_Zorn Zorn
Ky Guy
--- Sarah <sassisarah@...> wrote:

> Hey, I'm fairly new to this so i'm hoping i get this
> right . Well i
> felt like sharing a story....on the 13th of july
> this yr my mum
> passed away to a 4 year battle with cancer. I'm only
> 16 so at the
> moment its pretty much hitting me and i aint taking
> it too well.
> Today we had a memorial for my mum because she was
> cremated. See she
> was diagnosed terminal on the 9th of july n was
> given 3 months to
> live but she only lasted 4 days. She wanted to go
> see my family in
> melb, aus cause i live in Australia n Melb is in a
> different state
> to perth so we went to see her sisters and brothers.
> We arrived on
> the plane at 11 pm melb time on the 12th of july and
> exactly 24hours
> later she passed away. I miss her terribly, i mean
> she was my best
> friend....i'd skip goin out on weekend with my mates
> to just be
> around her. She was my world....I've neva been too
> fond of my dad, i
> mean my Parents were together till the day mum died
> but, i have alot
> of issues with him. My dad has a temper, and he
> sexually abused me
> as a kid and thinks i dont remember so he doesnt
> talk about it. Mum
> nearly left him over it, but mum n i talked so much
> about it. But
> now i'm left to live with him and he gets so angry
> at me. I mean my
> mum did everything for him, waited on him hand n
> fott cause she was
> brought up that way. But i'm doing my final years at
> school, the
> very important ones in australia and its like he
> expects me to
> handle that as well as my school. And i mean i do
> cook all our meals
> and do my own washing and try n make it comfy, but
> wen he says
> things arent good enuff or he says things like,
> "yesterday was a
> month since mum died..." and i go..."yeah" and he
> says "dont u
> care...?" it hurts so much, i wanted to move out but
> where do i go,
> i have no family in perth n melb so far away since
> ive made so many
> friends. I do wish though i was in a relationship
> with a guy for
> support, i feel so alone here. The last time i felt
> loved was around
> all my family in melb, n it would of been nice to
> come back to
> someone who cared about me. I worry alot about my
> weight, ive just
> lost 20kgs but i feel so huge. I wont go out at
> times because of it,
> since my dad told me at 10 i need to lose weight be4
> high school or
> else i'll get teased, which he was right but since
> then ive been so
> conscience. I dont know why ive done this but i do
> no i need to let
> it out....i cant take this anymore....if i ever had
> suicidal
> thoughts my mum was there to say "live for me" but
> now...no ones
> there....someone reply please...no matter what u
> say, its gonna help
> me.....
>
>




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