Hey, I'm fairly new to this so i'm hoping i get this right . Well i
felt like sharing a story....on the 13th of july this yr my mum
passed away to a 4 year battle with cancer. I'm only 16 so at the
moment its pretty much hitting me and i aint taking it too well.
Today we had a memorial for my mum because she was cremated. See she
was diagnosed terminal on the 9th of july n was given 3 months to
live but she only lasted 4 days. She wanted to go see my family in
melb, aus cause i live in Australia n Melb is in a different state
to perth so we went to see her sisters and brothers. We arrived on
the plane at 11 pm melb time on the 12th of july and exactly 24hours
later she passed away. I miss her terribly, i mean she was my best
friend....i'd skip goin out on weekend with my mates to just be
around her. She was my world....I've neva been too fond of my dad, i
mean my Parents were together till the day mum died but, i have alot
of issues with him. My dad has a temper, and he sexually abused me
as a kid and thinks i dont remember so he doesnt talk about it. Mum
nearly left him over it, but mum n i talked so much about it. But
now i'm left to live with him and he gets so angry at me. I mean my
mum did everything for him, waited on him hand n fott cause she was
brought up that way. But i'm doing my final years at school, the
very important ones in australia and its like he expects me to
handle that as well as my school. And i mean i do cook all our meals
and do my own washing and try n make it comfy, but wen he says
things arent good enuff or he says things like, "yesterday was a
month since mum died..." and i go..."yeah" and he says "dont u
care...?" it hurts so much, i wanted to move out but where do i go,
i have no family in perth n melb so far away since ive made so many
friends. I do wish though i was in a relationship with a guy for
support, i feel so alone here. The last time i felt loved was around
all my family in melb, n it would of been nice to come back to
someone who cared about me. I worry alot about my weight, ive just
lost 20kgs but i feel so huge. I wont go out at times because of it,
since my dad told me at 10 i need to lose weight be4 high school or
else i'll get teased, which he was right but since then ive been so
conscience. I dont know why ive done this but i do no i need to let
it out....i cant take this anymore....if i ever had suicidal
thoughts my mum was there to say "live for me" but now...no ones
there....someone reply please...no matter what u say, its gonna help
me.....