Well, I haven't been here for quite a while. Welcome to all the new
members, Anna, Jelena, Joanna, marihotstuff, Jess and Kendra. I
really thought I'd posted already a little while ago but evidently
not. Also, I can't find Noelle's post, just that Cara mentioned it
in a post. I still don't understand this thing. Anyway, thank you
very much for joining! Joanna, we have the same name! Don't worry
about your English, it's very good, you write English better than I
can write other languages.

I really hope that you find support here because really, nobody
should have to go through this.

I was looking at this website a while ago: www.anorexicweb.com
I don't want to trigger anybody, it's not a pro-ED site, it just has
lots of interesting {and sometimes worrying} information on it,
especially this part:

*** TRUTH ABOUT DEATH FROM BULIMIA ***

Yes, you can DIE from bulimia and it doesn't matter what you weigh.
Here is the hard, cold truth: Bulimia is LIFE THREATENING every time
you purge. Most bulimics DIE OVER A TOILET BOWL. Most bulimics DIE
while in the act of purging, and are found unconscious next to the
toilet. You know this because you feel your own heart racing each
time that you make yourself purge. The sudden change in electrolyte
balance can stop the heart from beating (electrolytes are like
electricity in our bodies, electrolytes give power to our hearts,
like a motor). Each act of purging is a direct threat to your
physical life. Period.

* THERE OUGHT NOT TO BE A SINGLE OTHERWISE-HEALTHY YOUNG PERSON
FOUND DEAD FROM BULIMIA NEXT TO A TOILET. IT IS UP TO US TO CHANGE
THINGS. IT IS UP TO YOU. WE NEED INTERNAL MIRRORS, NOT EXTERNAL
ONES. Please think about it. *****

It's definitely worth looking at.

I'm trying to recover from this stupid ED at the moment. It's been
going ok, I went for nine days without purging once, which was quite
an, well, new moment, a record in fact. I find that my ideas change
all the time, like I'll suddenly decide that I don't want to get
better and purge and then right after I'll decide that I do want to
get better after all.

Oooh, I feel like I've written lots. I hope things are going well
for everyobdy, lots of love, jo xxxx