My mom (she will be 41 next month) was diagnosed with AML last
January. She has gone through 5 rounds of chemo. They have canceled
2 bone marrow transplants the day before they started the chemo and
radiation. She has now been told there is nothing more they can do
for her. She is too weak to do more chemo, which only 2 of the rounds
really helped. She is also too weak and has too many cancer cells to
do the transplant. She was just told she has 6-8 weeks left. I am 23
with 2 small children at home. I feel as if my heart has been ripped
out. What do I do? How do I make this hurting not so bad? My
children keep asking me what's wrong. They are 3 and 1. I tell them
that Grandma's really sick and that makes mommy sad. It hurts to know
that I just had to change the date of my son's 4th birthday party
because I want my mom there and that way she should be. It really
hurts that my daughter turns 2 in 8 weeks and she might not even be
here for it. My mom probably will never see the age of 41. Will it
ever get better? Will I ever feel whole again? Please help me. My
heart is breaking in two. Thanks, Nicole