I was asked if I was depressed by the specialist and I said yes. He
prescribed a low dosage anti-depressant. It did nothing for my
headaches or my depression. Going back to him, he tried something
else for my headaches, and nothing helped. After about 2 years of no
help, I didn't go back. I've had to increase my tylenol dosage to
between 2500mg and 3000mg per dose, up to 3 times a day. To take care
of my headaches. I used to be at 2000mg, but that doesn't help
anymore. I don't care if it kills my liver. I find it extremely
difficult to work with such a headache. lower pain headaches I can
ignore, I easily endure lots of pain, but I have my limits too.
My kidney pain is from kidney stones I had, and my kidneys were
swollen. In a year and half, I've had 4 kidney stones. One requiring
surgery. The pain of kidney stones is incredible.
I also have Irritable bowel syndrome, which has been bothering me a
lot in the last year. I have an appointment in January with a specialist.
I have lower back pain due to scoliosis (curving of the spine), which
is a result of a short leg.
I have tinnitus from an ear infection years ago and my hearing is
diminishing.
Most people, when they feel the need to go to the bathroom, feel a
discomfort and some pressure. I feel pain, lots of it, with either
function.
I am no stranger to pain. It gets bad enough to bring me to tears.
This doesn't compare to the emotional and psychological pain that I
suffer.
For me, death is something to look forward to. I will no longer be in
any kind of pain. The future will not bring anything better for me,
so death cannot come for me soon enough.