I have an appointment with a urologist about my kidneys, but that`s a
month away yet.
Last evening I had to go home sick from work with a terrible headache.
I had it from the morning and still went to work. I was allowed to
leave when most of the stuff was done (which was pretty early).
I`ve seen the doctor and a specialist about my headaches and they
can`t explain them. I still get them, very intensely. I take tylenol
on a daily basis, several doses in a day, and many tylenol in a single
dose. Yesterday it didn`t help whatsoever. Sleep helped. I have a
small headache today, easily endured.
Why is it that I am expected to fight and want to live? Does nobody
understand that death is a much better place for me? It's the place I
most desire.
I might contact you to talk, but it won't change my mind about death.
If God truly loved me, he'd end my suffering.


--- In suicide4@yahoogroups.com, Frank Clark <frankjclarkjr@...> wrote:
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> Joe,
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> I am so sorry to here that your in pain.
> Please Joe, go to a doctor...medication and therapy will change your
life.
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> Let me know if you need to talk.
>  
> God loves you Joe...hang in there.
>  
> Frank
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> --- On Thu, 10/16/08, Joe <j_tancrede@...> wrote:
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> From: Joe <j_tancrede@...>
> Subject: [Suicide] I don`t care anymore.
> To: suicide4@yahoogroups.com
> Date: Thursday, October 16, 2008, 7:44 PM
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> I don`t know how to feel joy anymore. Every day I feel down and have
> forgotten how to feel genuinely happy. I wish things were over
> already. I don`t care any longer. Thoughts of death permeate my
> every thought. I drive and I hope to get into a fatal accident. I
> have pains in my kidneys and my lower gut, and hope it`s something
> life threatening.
> I`d like to be dead way before Christmas. That time of year holds no
> fascination for me whatsoever. I couldn`t care less about Christmas.
> I hate getting gifts, but don`t mind giving them.
> I pray for death to come and take me. That is my fondest wish.
> I feel so lonely all the time. There is nobody in my heart. I feel
> no love.
> If only death would come for me tonight, I`d be much happier.
> I can`t find any reason to live. Every day hurts. My heart feels
> empty, my mind feels depressed. I can hardly think. I want to die.
> Please Lord, I plead with you, end my life tonight, please. I don`t
> want to suffer any more. I don`t care where I end up after I die. No
> Hell could be worse torture than this. Give someone a better life,
> who needs it more than I do. Take what is the rest of my life and
> pass it on. Maybe make someone happy for me, please.
> If you won`t help take my life away, I will have to do it myself.
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