I don`t know how to feel joy anymore. Every day I feel down and have
forgotten how to feel genuinely happy. I wish things were over
already. I don`t care any longer. Thoughts of death permeate my
every thought. I drive and I hope to get into a fatal accident. I
have pains in my kidneys and my lower gut, and hope it`s something
life threatening.
I`d like to be dead way before Christmas. That time of year holds no
fascination for me whatsoever. I couldn`t care less about Christmas.
I hate getting gifts, but don`t mind giving them.
I pray for death to come and take me. That is my fondest wish.
I feel so lonely all the time. There is nobody in my heart. I feel
no love.
If only death would come for me tonight, I`d be much happier.
I can`t find any reason to live. Every day hurts. My heart feels
empty, my mind feels depressed. I can hardly think. I want to die.
Please Lord, I plead with you, end my life tonight, please. I don`t
want to suffer any more. I don`t care where I end up after I die. No
Hell could be worse torture than this. Give someone a better life,
who needs it more than I do. Take what is the rest of my life and
pass it on. Maybe make someone happy for me, please.
If you won`t help take my life away, I will have to do it myself.