Hi there everyone,
I know...I know.... I said I was going to be around from now on and
that I managed to get through things etc..etc..and I did manage to
get through it for a while. But then something else comes along and
I have torn a ligament in my knee and need surgery on it, but thats
not going to happen for some time yet. So Im on crutches and trying
to negotiate around your house with crutches when you have two bad
knees is not a good thing for me. As you know I already have
mobility problems. So had a fall in my house. Bruised myself up
alot, but more to my ego than anything else and just sat there on
the floor, again feeling sorry for myself, but heck, that really
doesnt do any good. But I sure do hate this past year.....if I could
describe it in one word it would be URGH! if that is a word.

Getting help when your not very mobile is extremely hard when there
isnt anyone around much to help. And let me tell ya...my lil cat
does NOT know how to make me a coffee, heck I keep asking him and he
just looks at me and then closes his eyes again going back to what
he does best..sleeping..lol.

I really do apologise for not being around. I so love our group. I
am battling with trying to keep my depression in check, without
medication of any sort. But when I think I got it under control, it
comes right back at me again. And then I get angry at everything and
think its not fair, but then I get angry at myself for feeling sorry
for myself when their ARE others much much worse off than me. And I
know that the reason I started our group in the first place is so
that ANYONE, no matter how small their problem seems..will have a
platform to come and vent or ask advice and get support and help and
understanding from others. But thats easier said than done isnt it?
When you see all the suffering going on. But sometimes for self
preservation and for one's own sanity, you have to cocoon yourself
into a bubble to help ones self. And at the moment as I dont have
any substantial help in my life. I have been doing that. Having to
think of myself, oh and my little cat of course.

I went to church yesterday. Im not overtly religious. I mean I dont
go to church every week. Gosh, hardly ever to be honest. And
although Im a christian. I believe their is a common thread that
runs through all religions and that is that we all believe in God.
Well, I do. And I was, as usual, feeling low and just went into my
local church, it was totally empty. No priest, only me....in Gods
house. I stayed there for half hour and had a good cry. And then
felt peaceful.

Enough about me. I so hope you are all well. I think of you all. I
welcome our newest members, thank you for joining us. We really are
a great little group of people here. Go onto our website and check
out our links page and database etc. it will be at the bottom of
this email.

Wishing you all, Health, Wealth, Peace and Happiness.
Sandara