Hi,
Was glad to hear about SOSJournal. I like to write most every evening
or whenever. It makes me feel connected to the good life and like a
magnet keeps me leaning in that direction. I see from the group
description that it's not so much about responding to others or
providing support than it is about writing out thoughts and feelings.
That's a good thing, I think. No pressure. Not that I don't like
helping others and boosting their own leanings toward sobriety, but
sometimes the little one inside me needs the space front and center
without feeling guilty or neglectful of others.

I had to turn off the t.v. tonight (Nov 2). Refocus on my life.

I'd like to spend some time writing about getting my physical health
back to where I want it to be now that I'm not drinking. I've been
sober for a year, with only a single blip on the radar during that
time. I feel solid now. It's funny, getting and remaining sober has
the unintended (or intended) effect of solidifying my knowledge of who
I am. My thoughts of drinking have been altered I think permanently.
I think of it much like I'd think of a life of crime or murder or
deceitfulness... it's just not something I'd do. It's not in my
realm. And I don't want it there. I used to grieve the booze and the
escape. But that mourning is over. Now I have sober mornings!

Just like I was able to get past the booze, I know I have it in me to
get my athletic body back. I had done real well on a brief attempt of
an sos health group. I was sorry to see it disband for political
reasons, but I'd like to reinvent that momentum for myself,
physically, here. Exercise, diet, weight loss. It's something within
my reach now, because I've got a handle on my moods and life to some
extent. So I'd like to get myself back into a good habit of healthy
living. The booze is gone, that was step one. The mood swings that
were ruining my life are gone, that was step two. Now it's time to
take that third step and get my butt running and caring about what I
eat. It's just the natural next phase in taking care of myself.

It's a great list idea! Kind of like a sigh of relief. Like leaving
the city for awhile and taking a long quiet stroll down a country
road.

drSue