Hello,

My name is Xavier but my friends call me either X or X man. This is
actually my first time posting a message on any board so it is
interesting. This is only my 2nd day without alcohol but it is my
5,346th time trying to stop. I am hoping that 5,347th time is the
charm. My biggest enemy I now realize, since I was about 16, was
denial.

I am one of those people that believe only in things when I have the
proof and boy did I ever need proof from myself, that I was, beyond
any shadow of doubt, an alcoholic. So my experimentation and
drinking career has spanned approx. 17 years. I do think it is time
to retire from that line of "work" :-)

I am actually now feeling better. The last 2 days have been rough,
with some major detox. I have also had my last cigarette today. So
I will be detoxing that as well for the next couple days. Wish me
luck. :-) X