I've been working my butt off on my consulting projects. I'm not used
to using my brain this intensely. It's causing me difficulty in my
sleep. Feel like my heart is racing at night and early morning. So
I'm just trying to go with it, so if I only sleep 4 hours at a time,
so be it. A little hard to adjust, I'm so used to sleeping 10 hours
or more. But I worry about the deadlines, even though I've never
missed one or even come close. They love my work but I just get
insecure every time on a new project.

My goal is to integrate my life into my work. It doesn't have to be
all or nothing, although I do like to work for hours at a time. But I
have to remember to take care of myself...this body's the only vehicle
I've got. Money's cool, but not if it's at the expense of the me on
the outside. So in this thought, I went up to the pool yesterday
morning and again today after sitting 8 hours at my desk. Man did
that feel good... I'm going to miss the pool when I move next week.
But I intend to keep my physical health up. Just like getting sober,
it's going to be a gradual process figuring out how to live while
working intensely like this. My quiet writer's life seems a distant
notion, but I don't mind the new structure, just so long as I can make
some life boundaries that feel comfortable.

drSue 18Nov04