I have a tendency towards timidity. Afraid that I might offend
someone. I don't want people to be unhappy with me. Here's the odd
part. I don't feel as though I care what people think about me.
It's their defensive reactions that cause anxiety in me. I shy away
from that feeling like the plague. I am allowing others to dictate
my feelings. I can start by molding myself in my own image rather
than someone else's expections. Yes it's rocky, I'm sure that I'll
come off as obnoxious sometimes. It's better for me to try and let
my feelings known and then let it go. At least I will have done my
part by being honest thus not misleading others. Also, I'm still
sick. I noticing how much my ability to accurately assess situations
is impacted. I have a tendency to see the rosy side of things rather
than look for the reality of a situation. Coping with the fear of
failure to live up to a certain standard I am looking for friendly
supportive characteristics in others. It's a heartening thought that
my striving for clarity will help me make sound decisions. I might
think that I know where the rainbow is but sometimes it's around a
different corner. I can only strive to do what I think is right and
adapt to what happens.
continuing to sashay down the sweet path of sobriety susan