I really do not know where to begin this post. I am probably posting
this message in the wrong section anyway. I have always been a very
shy person. When I was younger I never wanted to talk to other kids.
I never tried to make friends with people because I told myself the
more friends you have the more problems you will have. I went to
college and I wanted to start over. I did not want to have the same
views on friendship that I had in high school. I thought if I got
involved with something that would make me speak in front of people
maybe my shyness would just go away. I graduated with a degree in
public relations. My fear never did really go away.

I always thought that it was a horrible case of shyness but over the
last few months I believe I am suffering from SDA. A few months ago
I got a promotion at my job. I was very excited about it. The pay
and benefits are great and I really enjoy working for this company.
The new job calls for a lot of meetings and conference calls. This
is where I am having the SDA problems. We usually have these calls
and meetings toward the end of the work week. I am always very laid
back and relaxed at the beginning of the week. As the days go by I
get more and more nervous about these tasks. Almost to the point
where I want to tell my boss to demote me back to my other position
for I would not have to deal with it. When I am at these meetings
and on these phone calls I can't help thinking that the person on
the other line is thinking that I do not know what I am doing or I
am giving the wrong information. It has gotten so bad that I have
actually been thinking of looking for another job with less
responsibility.

I really do not know what to do. If anyone can help me out and give
Me some advice I would really appreciate it. I will take all the
help I can get at this point.

Thanks for listening to me rant.