I don't know when my social anxiety first started but all I do know
is the intense feeling of loneliness this illness leaves you with. I
am a complete wreck of a human being and am so terrified of my
future prospects in life that I wake up crying at night coz I'm
scared the darkness is going to swallow me and nobody'll know I've
died. My problems are deep rooted and I don't want to bore anyone
with all of my neurosis, but this illness has destroyed any chance
of happiness in my life and believe me I am PETRIFIED that it will
never get any better, that I will not be a normal functioning human
being with some chance of breaking free.