As most of you know I have my son's anniversary coming up. Well, I
just found out today that the father has another child due to be born
around that same time. To make matters worse it is a boy and they are
taking the first name of our child, which was the fathers first name
since my son was a Jr., and making it their son's middle name!

I have also been made aware that the child may be born with fluid on
his brain and may have either life long complications or might not
make it. I wish no harm on the child at all and I do not wish for
anyone to go through what we had to with losing a child.

I am so torn ... so hurt ... so confused. And I am asking God why
over and over again. From what I can gather he does not want anything
to do with the mother and she is the kind of mother that every other
week gets threatened from DFACS to have her children taken away from
her. He will be there for the child I know because he is a great
father and his children are his world but he wishes that she was not
the mother. So why would God take away our child, the one he wanted,
to have a child with THAT! It makes no sense!

I am just so torn, saddened, hurt, confused, angry ... words cannot
describe it all! And to make matters worse the anniversary approaching
with the father and I not speaking. I really cannot speak to him now!

Torn,
V