Hi Maya,
I haven't had to deal with any baby shower invitations since the loss of my little Antoine however I have received photo upon photo upon photo through email of my friends little boy who was born only a few months before my baby boy was due. I love my friend dearly and I know that she's proud of her children however it's just difficult. You don't know what to say or how to respond or what to do to get people to understand and I guess it comes across as being ugly or selfish or whatever if we don't respond in any type of way that is not considered overly joyous and happy.
It hurts and I feel my heart break every time I see a new photo of her little boy because it's a constant reminder of where my Antoine would be at this stage in his life and what he would have looked like. He would have been 4 months old now. But I don't have the heart to tell her that it's difficult for me to see her baby's pictures so I normally just read the email and not open the photos or I skim them quickly and send a reply telling her how big he's getting. I just don't have the courage to tell her. I wish that I could care as much about myself and my feelings as I do hers...
I don't know... I will read the replies to your post to see if I can pick up on some pointers as well on how to cope!
Karmen
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