Dear Amanda,
I don't know if it gets easier but at least for me I think I may be more accepting of the fact that my son is no longer with us. The pain is no longer intense like it was that first year. You are at your 6 month mark. For me and I think a lot of moms that is when the shock wears off and the deep pain sets in. I mean there was always pain but around the 6 month mark was the hardest for me. Perhaps because I was at my due date during that time. I use to say "if I can just make it past my expected due date I'll feel better". Well I did and then all of the other milestones kept passing. His first month, his first birthday/anniversary. I miss not being able to do the things with him that I do with my other children. Again, that first year was rough but somehow we get through it and the next and the one after that. I hope that it does get easier for you at some point. Please be gentle with yourself.
Hugs,
Adrianne
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