I am still very fresh in my loss, but bittersweet for me is seeing
babies that are about the same age Gavin would be. He would have
been 4 months old last week and what I wouldn't give to see how he
would look now. Blond hair still? Blue eyes? Would he be chunky or
slender like my other 2 boys? It always brings tears to my eyes. I
am sorry for your tears.

Amanda

--- In shareatlantasupport@yahoogroups.com, "annealyce"
<annealyce@...> wrote:
>
> Hello moms,
>
> How is everyone doing? August 5th marked 3 years since I found out
> that I was expecting baby Nathaniel. Time goes by so fast and yet
it
> seems like it was only yesterday. Today was the first day of
school
> for our neighborhood kids. I also remember the first day of school
> back in 2005. I saw this little boy who was clearly a
kindergartner.
> He was full of energy running up the street in the direction of
the
> school. Behind him I assume was his older brother. His head was
down
> and you could tell that it was not his first year and he was not
> looking forward to the new year. I laughed and patted my belly and
> couldn't help but laugh. I started to day dream about my new baby
and
> his/her first day of school and years to come. The following year
I
> saw those two brothers again. This time both boys had their heads
> down LOL. I wonder how that first year was for the little boy. I
hope
> he faired better then I had. I looked for him again this year but
did
> not see him. I have to admit passing the school I cried.
Remembering
> how happy I was and full of hope is bitter sweet.
>
> So moms what bitter sweet memories do each of you have? For the
> veterans now that you are a year or more out how do you feel about
> those memories?
>