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Guess what?? I made it past the 17th week!! I am so happy!
And I also found out that I am having a little boy!
I can't believe it?!!!
I hope all is well with you and your little ones.
Love,
Maya
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From: Angie Hernandez <therapist_ng@...>
To: sasubpregsupport@yahoogroups.com
Sent: Sat, Jul 11, 2009 10:37 am
Subject: Re: [SHARE Atlanta Subsequent Pregnancy Support] New to Group
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Maya
I got pregnant soon after my loss of my twins Nicholas & Maylin (wasn't planned) and it was w/ twins again. It was very difficult in the beginning, there was even times that I reffered to my new babies by the names of my baby angels and I felt extremely guilty. I also felt detachment... I soon realized that it was all fear. It takes over u and u r afraid to love ur new baby while pregnant. So i just decided that I would cry and let the fear go.
My family was very supportive, since they were handling the grief differently they were able to enjoy my pregnancy and I tried my best to look at it through their eyes. That helped a little... prayers also helped alot. When I gave birth it was a new set of emotions ( I recently gave birth to them prematurely July 4th 2009, after being hospitalized on bedrest) and I'm trying to focus by making lists and journals of my emotions and accepting that I have earned the right to cry whenever I want and my recent delivery is a gift. When I see them I see my lost but I also see/feel love like no other and its even stronger because of what I went thru w/ the loss Of Nicholas and Maylin. I hope this makes sense and helps...
Angie
Mommy to Baby Angels
Maylin and Nicholas B/D 10/23/08
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