From: ayambri@... <ayambri@...>
Subject: Re: [SHARE Atlanta Subsequent Pregnancy Support] New to Group
To: sasubpregsupport@yahoogroups.com
Date: Thursday, July 16, 2009, 9:43 AM

 

Hi Angie,

I remember you. Sorry it took me so long to write back. I just wanted to say Thank you and Congrats to you. I am so happy for you. Wow 4th of July babies...fireworks every year for them! Are they home yet? Yes sometimes I see Gabrielle when I see these ultrasound pics of the new baby but I think only until here recently have I accepted that this new baby is indeed a gift. I will like you give myself a pass to cry and to just feel whatever I need to feel....I've earned it!

 

Thank you for sharing with me...you've helped me a lot!

 

Maya


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From: Angie Hernandez <therapist_ng@ yahoo.com>
To: sasubpregsupport@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Sat, Jul 11, 2009 10:37 am
Subject: Re: [SHARE Atlanta Subsequent Pregnancy Support] New to Group

Maya   I got pregnant soon after my loss of my twins Nicholas & Maylin (wasn't planned) and it was w/ twins again. It was very difficult in the beginning, there was even times that I reffered to my new babies by the names of my baby angels and I felt extremely guilty. I also felt detachment.. . I soon realized that it was all fear. It takes over u and u r afraid to love ur new baby while pregnant. So i just decided that I would cry and let the fear go. My family was very supportive, since they were handling the grief differently they were able to enjoy my pregnancy and I tried my best to look at it through their eyes. That helped a little... prayers also helped alot. When I gave birth it was a new set of emotions  ( I recently gave birth to them prematurely July 4th 2009, after being hospitalized on bedrest) and I'm trying to focus by making lists and journals of my emotions and accepting that I have earned the right to cry whenever I want and my recent delivery is a gift. When I see them I see my lost but I also see/feel love like no other and its even stronger because of what I went thru w/ the loss Of Nicholas and Maylin. I hope this makes sense and helps...   Angie Mommy to Baby Angels Maylin and Nicholas B/D 10/23/08 Keanu and Lanai born 7/4/09 --- On Fri, 7/10/09, ayambri@aol. com <ayambri@aol. com> wrote: From: ayambri@aol. com <ayambri@aol. com> Subject: [SHARE Atlanta Subsequent Pregnancy Support] New to Group To: sasubpregsupport@ yahoogroups. com Date: Friday, July 10, 2009, 6:03 PM Hi Everyone, I'm new to this group. I lost my son Gabrielle at 17 weeks on 4.17.07 due to multiple uterine fibroids. I am currently 17 weeks into my subsequent pregnancy and am on bedrest until next week. I feel like I haven't really bonded with this baby and am really concerned if that is normal. Everytime I begin to get a little excited something happens that makes me feel as if this pregnancy won't make it either. And this pregnancy has made me miss my Gabrielle even more. And I begin to have this incredible guilt that just washes over me when I begin to actually enjoy this pregnancy. Did anyone else experience any feelings like this? Maya PS-Oddly enough, I've begun listening to music and singing again and I haven't really sang since Gabrielle died. It actually makes me feel better. And when I sing, every now and then I will feel this baby move. An Excellent Credit Score is 750. See Yours in Just 2 Easy Steps!

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