Mindy,

LaWanda and I had one of our long talks yesterday (we have had these
through the years...she has been very involved in SA as a volunteer,
too!!). I told her about this very thing!!! I remember holding Joel when
he was born and for about 6 months to a year and thinking, " Wow!! He is
REALLY HERE!!" I didn't sleep sometimes for LOOKING AT HIM in
disbelief. At first I kept thinking someone would come and thank me for
babysitting him. LOL

I agree with the one foot in front of the other and keeping moving. So
many parents have shared the very feelings that LaWanda is having. I
believe some of it is just the disbelief still mixed with some fear and a
WHOLE LOT of HOPE and promise...all still confused in the home of our
hearts and souls. This is the part that many OTHERS sometimes still can't
understand about our feelings. How could they when WE still are rambling
around.

The good news is we live through it. Have our babies and love them very
dearly. AND, they ARE OURS!! W do and can care for them and love them. Of
course, we have loved them...all along.

Mindy, it was great having your read and be there with our Mother's Day
Celebration. We are blessed to have you as part of our group.

Take care,
Marcia


At 10:01 AM 5/8/2008, you wrote:

>I'm estatic to hear everything is going well. I don't know if the
>feeling ever really wears off. My Bailey is 6 1/2 months and I still
>look at her in awe everyday. I think I had spent so much time worrying
>about my pregnacy I never took the time to worry about the parent
>part. If I learned anything from my loss its that you just have to put
>one foot in front of the other to keep moving. Sounds like simple
>advice but easier said than done. I beleive in my heart Rachel will be
>here soon and safe and it just gets better from there! Good luck and
>keep us posted.
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