Hi Mindy,
A sad but heartfelt welcome to our group. I am so truly sorry about
the loss of your son Athen. My pregnancy with Caleb was also problem
free, and we don't know why I went into labor at 24 weeks, so I can
relate on some level to your loss. Time does ease the pain, but it
truly never goes away does it. I know I still feel my Caleb with me
also, so I don't think its crazy that Athen had his hand in your
pregnancy. Athen sounds like a beautiful little boy.

Last year when I was pregnant I actually allowed myself to be happy
and full of hope, most of the time it worked. As I approached my
loss time with my pregnancy with Caleb it did get scary, but when i
reached it, I started saying daily, I am now one day more pregnant
with this baby than I have ever been before. As I added days and
weeks the fear eased up, but until I held dear Sarah Cate in my house
was I totally relieved.

As I approached my 24 week mark, my Perinatologist saw me every week
and did an ultrasound, I am pretty sure just to ease my fears. I
would try to make these appts on Friday as seeing the baby did give
me some peace of mind for a few days and it got me through the
weekend. He acknowledged as I approached 20 weeks I was getting
close to "a scary time for me" and boy he was right. I really helped
me to have an understanding doctor. Is your doctor giving you any
special care because of your history, I hope so. I know my OB and
Peri told me any time I started to feel stressed they would squeeze
me in to at the very least hear the heart beating...

This is a new forum, so there are not a ton of members YET, please
know that those of us who are here are here for you. Please feel
free to vent when you need to as there are many feelings during a
subsequent pregnancy that are common to those who have been through a
loss... no matter what the reason for the previous loss. We totally
get it and are here for you!

Peace,

Julie
Mom to Angel Caleb born at 24 weeks
Mom to Angel JP early miscarriage
Mom to my rainbow baby Sarah Cate born November 2006

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<msimmons1023@...> wrote:
>
> Hello All!
>
> My name is Mindy Simmons. I am cautiosly awaiting a new arrival in
> November. So far things have been good, but that does little to
ease
> my fears. In October of 1996 I gave birth to a stillborn son,
Athen.
> After 28 weeks of problem free pregnancy :( He was absoultley
perfect
> at 2lbs 2 oz and a head full of brown curls. In the last ten years
I
> have done a lot of healing and have found my peace with the
situation.
> I know he is with me everyday, and should I ever doubt that he has
ways
> of letting me know he's there. It may sound quite crazy but I
think he
> very much had a hand in this pregnancy. I had began to except that
he
> maybe the only child I would ever have. To be honest that seemed
> easier to deal with than the thought of trying again. Needless to
say
> this baby was a suprise. So as each week goes by I get both more
> excited and more nervous. I am unsure how I will feel when I cross
> that 28 week mark, but I am glad I have each of you to lean on if I
> need it.
>