--- In sagroupsupport@yahoogroups.com, "mambrennan" <mambrennan@...> wrote:
>
>  hey just wondering if there's anyone that I could talk to. But I guess that's
what everyone says. Replying back would be great. I'm just looking for some
help.
>
Did anyone respond to you?  Did you try www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org?

hey just wondering if there's anyone that I could talk to. But I guess that's
what everyone says. Replying back would be great. I'm just looking for some
help.

hey don't worry, you're not alone

Hello, I was happy to find this group. Suicide or thinking about it was never
much of a problem until this last year. My doctors changed some medicines too
quickly that didn't mix well and over a couple of months, it sent me over the
proverbial" edge". I remember acting out how I might do it, among other things.
Finally, one night, I must have been the worse. I went to one of my AA meetings
and announced what I wanted to do and even told them how I was going to do it,
all in a real fog. A few of my friends wouldn't let me go home and I spent 3 or
4 days in  the psych ward.
I'm feeling better now but am finding that having once accepted that I could do
it haunts me. Now and then I get those feelings back about how it felt to have
almost made the decision to do it.
I'm glad I didn't. I think this will continue to unpack as a true gift to make
my life bigger. It's not something that's easily discussed with many people.

Hi:

Does anyone know of a SA group in San Francisco, Ca?  If not has
anyone started such a group and would be willing to give me pointers
on setting one up here?

Thanks
Robaj

Hi Chris,

Welcome to the group.  I don't believe there is a group in Wisconsin
but by all means  feel free to start one.  Have you looked at the
website, suicideanonymous.org?  I recommend you look at that for a
better explanation as to what it is and isn't.  Also, there are 2
books, Secrets of Suicide by Ken Tullis, MD and The Seduction of
Suicide by Kevin Taylor, MD that I recommend highly.  You can learn
about them at ktullis.com.  I hope you are managing well with
everything.

Heidi


--- In sagroupsupport@yahoogroups.com, "Christopher" <cgb1973@...>
wrote:
>
> Hi everyone,
>
> Last month I spent eleven days in a psychiatric hospital due to a
> suicide attempt. As I was sitting in my room trying to conjure up
> happy thoughts for the nurses, I began to realize that this was not
> working. The whole hospital thing. Yet it was the only thing that
was
> keeping me alive. It was like a paradox. I was there because of
> suicide but I could not talk about it, because to do so would make
> things worse for me.
>
> I looked back on the journey that brought me to that hospital and I
> realized that I had been hospitalized five times and I had made
> thirteen attempts on my life. I remember thinking, could I be
addicted
> to this and wouldn't that be interesting if someone had created a
> group for this kind of thing. I didn't think I was lucky enough that
> it would be called Suicide Anonymous, but sure enough I found it and
> the creators sounded like they had something new.
>
> Let me give a little background info. I'm a 35 yo male born and
raised
> in California but moved to Wisconsin with in the past three years
> because of economics and poor mental health. I'm diabetic and I
suffer
> from peripheral neuropathy (painful nerve damage). It use to be
that a
> few times a year the pain would get so bad that all I could think
> about was "a way out". Now the pain was one that level on a daily
basis.
>
> I remember in '03 sitting in bed and looking up ways to do "it". I
> didn't want to feel anymore pain so anything that would be too
painful
> was out. Besides after reading, none of them were fool proof. Most
of
> the methodology has horrible side effects if done wrong. Until I
> learned about insulin overdose. That revelation scared the hell out
me
> so badly I went directly to the hospital.
>
> Now, I'm learning that with proper diabetic control I can actually
> ease the pain (thought not all the way) and ease my depression.
>
> I don't feel like I'm out of the wood and I would like to go to a SA
> meeting but I don't think there are any in my area (Green Bay, WI).
So
> I might just have to create one of my own.
>
> I'm not familiar with any 12 step program but I think that if I can
> take the time to learn how to die, I think I can take the time to
> learn how to live.
>
> - Chris
>

Hi everyone,

Last month I spent eleven days in a psychiatric hospital due to a
suicide attempt. As I was sitting in my room trying to conjure up
happy thoughts for the nurses, I began to realize that this was not
working. The whole hospital thing. Yet it was the only thing that was
keeping me alive. It was like a paradox. I was there because of
suicide but I could not talk about it, because to do so would make
things worse for me.

I looked back on the journey that brought me to that hospital and I
realized that I had been hospitalized five times and I had made
thirteen attempts on my life. I remember thinking, could I be addicted
to this and wouldn't that be interesting if someone had created a
group for this kind of thing. I didn't think I was lucky enough that
it would be called Suicide Anonymous, but sure enough I found it and
the creators sounded like they had something new.

Let me give a little background info. I'm a 35 yo male born and raised
in California but moved to Wisconsin with in the past three years
because of economics and poor mental health. I'm diabetic and I suffer
from peripheral neuropathy (painful nerve damage). It use to be that a
few times a year the pain would get so bad that all I could think
about was "a way out". Now the pain was one that level on a daily basis.

I remember in '03 sitting in bed and looking up ways to do "it". I
didn't want to feel anymore pain so anything that would be too painful
was out. Besides after reading, none of them were fool proof. Most of
the methodology has horrible side effects if done wrong. Until I
learned about insulin overdose. That revelation scared the hell out me
so badly I went directly to the hospital.

Now, I'm learning that with proper diabetic control I can actually
ease the pain (thought not all the way) and ease my depression.

I don't feel like I'm out of the wood and I would like to go to a SA
meeting but I don't think there are any in my area (Green Bay, WI). So
I might just have to create one of my own.

I'm not familiar with any 12 step program but I think that if I can
take the time to learn how to die, I think I can take the time to
learn how to live.

- Chris

Thank you for starting this group. I to am addicted to suicide. I have
been for a long time and talking to people who are going through the
same thing without being judged really helps.

--- In sagroupsupport@yahoogroups.com, "truegrit1" <truegrit1@...>
wrote:
>
>
>
> hi,
> thanks for starting this group. i just got out of the hospital after
10
> days for my suicidality and have given my therapist a month's warning
> before the next attempt. I could really use somebody to talk to about
> my suicidal addiction.
> truegrit1
>
I hope we'll get enough members and people to make it worth your while
and meaningful and that we can help each other.

hi,
thanks for starting this group. i just got out of the hospital after 10
days for my suicidality and have given my therapist a month's warning
before the next attempt. I could really use somebody to talk to about
my suicidal addiction.
truegrit1

Please feel free to use this as a way to discuss and process your
thoughts and feelings of and about suicide.