Hi Chris,

Welcome to the group. I don't believe there is a group in Wisconsin
but by all means feel free to start one. Have you looked at the
website, suicideanonymous.org? I recommend you look at that for a
better explanation as to what it is and isn't. Also, there are 2
books, Secrets of Suicide by Ken Tullis, MD and The Seduction of
Suicide by Kevin Taylor, MD that I recommend highly. You can learn
about them at ktullis.com. I hope you are managing well with
everything.

Heidi


--- In sagroupsupport@yahoogroups.com, "Christopher" <cgb1973@...>
wrote:
>
> Hi everyone,
>
> Last month I spent eleven days in a psychiatric hospital due to a
> suicide attempt. As I was sitting in my room trying to conjure up
> happy thoughts for the nurses, I began to realize that this was not
> working. The whole hospital thing. Yet it was the only thing that
was
> keeping me alive. It was like a paradox. I was there because of
> suicide but I could not talk about it, because to do so would make
> things worse for me.
>
> I looked back on the journey that brought me to that hospital and I
> realized that I had been hospitalized five times and I had made
> thirteen attempts on my life. I remember thinking, could I be
addicted
> to this and wouldn't that be interesting if someone had created a
> group for this kind of thing. I didn't think I was lucky enough that
> it would be called Suicide Anonymous, but sure enough I found it and
> the creators sounded like they had something new.
>
> Let me give a little background info. I'm a 35 yo male born and
raised
> in California but moved to Wisconsin with in the past three years
> because of economics and poor mental health. I'm diabetic and I
suffer
> from peripheral neuropathy (painful nerve damage). It use to be
that a
> few times a year the pain would get so bad that all I could think
> about was "a way out". Now the pain was one that level on a daily
basis.
>
> I remember in '03 sitting in bed and looking up ways to do "it". I
> didn't want to feel anymore pain so anything that would be too
painful
> was out. Besides after reading, none of them were fool proof. Most
of
> the methodology has horrible side effects if done wrong. Until I
> learned about insulin overdose. That revelation scared the hell out
me
> so badly I went directly to the hospital.
>
> Now, I'm learning that with proper diabetic control I can actually
> ease the pain (thought not all the way) and ease my depression.
>
> I don't feel like I'm out of the wood and I would like to go to a SA
> meeting but I don't think there are any in my area (Green Bay, WI).
So
> I might just have to create one of my own.
>
> I'm not familiar with any 12 step program but I think that if I can
> take the time to learn how to die, I think I can take the time to
> learn how to live.
>
> - Chris
>