Diane if you have yahoo messenger please Im me at happy1to2004@... so i
can talk to you

Jan

"Diane .H." <rsdpain05@...> wrote:
Hi eveyone its Diane I havent been able to post in a while since I
finally just found a place thats able to deal and willing to with this
monster disease. Then theres the fact of my now ex. If you have
remembered me from before a lot of my inserts have to do with help,
questions but also the mistreatment of this man. He has been so angry
for so long and has been so angry since this started and although he
was always a control freak and little bylittle more and more came
through. Well when I got hurt the worst it got the worst he did as if
he took my vulnerability as a way to get more control then he was ever
able to have before. Well I have been seeing a counselor since a month
or two after I got hurt last March but about 2-3 months ago I took the
step of seeing a domestic abuse counselor. Turns out I had been slowly
verbally abused to the point he had me a hole and feeling lower than
low... But the one thing I always said was he would NEVER hit me. Well



i was wrong on may 17 he did and out of pure shock and still dont
understand how or why at that moment, needless to say he had been
kneeling down cleaning dog pee and i was putting my stuff on the couch
so he could drop me off at my moms with my son while he went to work
and we had been mildly argueing when BAMMMM! I dont know how or witrh
what arm but ablow to my outer left thigh ( the place where the Rsd
started and was worst)

To make the story short I left w/ my son, got an order of protection
and filed for custody. Had to go to the hospitol from the terrible
agonizing pain where I couldnt wear pants for days they took pictures
and my case was already built.

Then I heard about forensic nurses and how they mean the world in
court and they have the best cameras so there was no way he could deny
it, thought it was the best thing I could do!

So today I get a call my huge bruise lacked usual pattern and
stronger damage in some areas than other that arent usually associated
with a single hit.

WOW shocked isnt the word and petrified that maybe now he can deny
it and the judge may give the monster our son fully and worst of all
without the anger counsiling I wanted ordered , I didnt have him
arrested I just wanted my son and I to be safe and him to see he needs
help.

I know what happened and he even told me when it happened I had
deserved it and left our son and I there without a ride to my mms with
me in terrible pain it took all my strength to call the neighbor and
mom and go to court house and hospitol to do what I had to do, So I
cant possibly see how my forensic photos of the bruise dont fit a
pattern of normal incidences like that, then it hit me, this disease
does so many things to us all that make no sense and dont seem
believable sometimes and thats the only thing I can think of.

PLEASE PLEASE if anyone knows if this disease can make us bruise
oddly or whatever else you would say, strangely, I dont know if ANYONE
knows Anything that may help PLEASE help I dont knopw what to do when
you know you have done nothing wrong, i wanted to take the extra step
to show the world about his cruelty and look what happened, Please
help I cant see how this is feaseable.
feeling lost and shocked and confused
and scared for my son and I
Diane





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