I cant believe this. I HATE EVERYTRHING ABOUT THIS FREAKING
DISORDER, IT HAS RUINED MY LIFE! My one and only precious life, it
being ruinbed by this crap and these treatments. I spent $2500
recently on Photofacials to look even worse. Not with redness and
rosacea symptoms, but THE HAIR ON MY FACE. I look so weird, ill,
like I am undergoing cancer chemotherapy treatments. I am being
stared out and people look at me like I am a freak now. No one EVER
looked at me this way even when I was at my WORST Rosacea wise. Now
I am also VERy depressed and ansious because of this..I mean everyone
thought I looked GREAT before these treatments, now I have hair on
neck, irregular hair patterns on chin and no hair growing back on
sides of face, like a freak. No hair at all, and now I cant even be
close to people, I am ruining the vacation for my brother who is in
toewn, I am not going to class(this is my final semester of school)
and I dread th upcoming holiday where I will be seeing sooo much
family you have no idea. I continue to act, feel depressed and
anxious over this horrible disorder and I payed great money to look
even worse. I cant win, soon this disease might just win out over me
and I will halt all treatments and just let it do what it wants and I
will enjoy the little things and if I will be beat red with horrible
butning and stining and swelling so be it... I just wanna live a
normal life again and I cant because of this. Now I am going to have
to go back to the psychiatrist and probably end up going back on
medication for what they call "Body Dysmorphic Disorder", everyone
saying I am just crazy over my apperance. well if they only knew
what it was like to have this horrible vascular disease... They have
no clue, and it makes me really wanna just give up sometimes, to try
so hard and still just barely get by in life,... Now I have to wait
and hope hair comes back, the rosacea symptoms are the least of my
freaking concerns now, this is crazy...