I was diagnosed with major depression in 2001 when I finally decided
to go into treatment for my binge drinking alcoholism. Since then I
have tried so many different medications and none have successfully
worked for a long period besides Wellbutrin. Well that one stopped
working and now I have an apt today to try to figure out what in the
heck is going on with me and to hopefully find a new med that will
work. I am thinking I may have Bipolar because I have weeks of
being really down...tired, sleeping alot, not eating, not able to
get anything done around the house, snapping at my children and
husband, and just wanting to be alone in the quiet. But there are
days where I have so much energy that I dont know what to do with
it. My mind races, I cant sit down, I still dont eat, I am much
better with my kids and husband, the house work gets done in record
time, I dont watch tv at all, I feel like I am hyped up on caffeine
tablets, I smoke like crazy. I just dont know what to do. My
mother was the same way. We used to call them "mood swings". Does
this sound like anything someone else is going through? I have done
so much internet research on this I am wondering if I am putting it
all in my head myself. This whole situation is so weird. I always
swore I would never be like my mom and behave this way to my family,
but I am finding more and more often that my mood can swing so fast
that I dont see it comming and end up bitting heads off all the
time. I dont want to make my children feel as bad as I did as a kid
when my mom would "snap", but I am doing it with out realizing it
till after the fact. I apologize and then go way easy on them. My
6 yr old does not even know how to clean her own room because every
time I snap I help her or do it for her.

Any ideas on how to work with this?

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Thanks Linda