I joined this group briefly in July/August of 2008. I left when my partner and I
split up and it looked like she wasn't coming back. Well, she's back in my life,
but we are just friends.

Of course, it's more complicated than that. For all intents and purposes, we are
in a casual relationship--A friends with benefits situation. I thought I could
handle this. Some days I can. What I have trouble with is dealing with the
distant times that follow the intimate times that we have.

We recently spent 5 days together on vacation and it was great. It felt almost
like we were a couple again. But I got too comfortable with that because when we
got home, it was like I didn't exist again. She was busy with all her other
friends and didn't want me around.

I wish I could move on but I still love her and still want her to love me back.
And I find myself waiting for her call again and missing her and feeling
depressed when I don't hear from her.

I'm trying to read the books and live my life as I've read about so many others
doing in this situation, but most of the times I feel like I should be getting a
medal for putting up with this. then I have to wonder why I keep doing this to
myself.

Anyway. I'm back. Not sure for how long, but would appreciate any support.

Dawn