I've never posted on here, but I'm in the same situation as you right
now. I have been in this roller coaster relationship for 2 years now.
It's time to get off the ride.

I love her soo much and would like to build a life together. But it's
time to save myself. She is an adult surviver of childhood sexual
abuse and like many in her position has been diagnosed as bipolar and
borderline personality disorder.

Every promise has been broken, every committment fell thru. I no
longer trust and I'm not sure how I could ever get that back.

I just need to figure out what's next. I feel so empty and lost
without her.

--- In positivepartnersofsurvivors@yahoogroups.com, "troubledtimes00"
<pasqualecaleca@...> wrote:
>
> I have posted a few times, but this will be the last i commend all of
> those that are riding the wave with there love one who has been
> sexually abused. I have been involved in this marriage for a short
yet
> miserable two years, after the honeymoon it all went to hell. I have
> tried therapy and ended up with my own therapist for depression. I
> can see how my life would be, i have never loved anyone more then
> this women and wanted everything with her, i just cannot condem
> myself to a life of misery and loneliness. Am i selfish for doing
> this? For putting myself and sanity first, I am getting blamed for
all
> the pain she has been through and the guilt trips are non stop. I am
> afraid that i myself will never be the same, two years of total
> rejection takes a toll on a person and now i feel like i will have
> trust issues.
>