Hi everyone,

My name is Sarah and I'm new to the site. I've been registered for
a few days but had a really hard time trying to compose myself to
write my story. Firstly, I would like to say that I am truly sorry
for anyone who has lost a child, and congratulations to those who
are currently pregnant.

I lost my son on September 19, 2004 due to placenta abruption. It's
been terrible trying to cope. It doesn't feel like the days are
getting any easier but I don't cry out loud as much as I did when it
first happened. He was 24 weeks and born with a faint heartbeat. I
still cry to have him back and the closer I get to my due date, the
harder it is to deal with. I can't help but calculate how many
days, weeks or months I would be if I was still pregnant. I was
looking so forward to the new year, especially January 7 (his due
date). Now I am dreading the New Year, all my excitment is gone.

I was so shocked to find out that this chatroom existed. I actually
found it by accident while researching abruptions on the net. I am
hoping that I will be able to speak to those who are willing to chat
about abruptions or just want to talk about anything in general.

Take care

Sarah
sarmaloney@...