I have 3 healthy beautiful children, 2 girls ages 13 and 4 and my son
is 7, also a stepson, age 9. My yongest daughter was born in January
2000 (Miss Millenium) and I found out I was pregnant again in
December of the same year. i was so happy and excited, I really
wanted this baby and was so overjoyed at the thoughts of having one
more. I felt movement in January, which I thought was early but
everyone is different. But things just didn't seem right. I was not
physically sick (I was a lucky one who had no morning sickness with
any of them) but just didn't feel right. I kept telling my dr
something was wrong, but he wasn't concerned. Februaury, 2001 I
finally convinced the dr. something was wrong, he book me for an
ultrasound the first week of march. I spent the last week of Feb.
pretty much on my back, my mom and bf were good about helping me and
doing things around the hosue and with the other kids. Sadly, the
last day of february i start bleeding, we rushed to the hospital were
the doctor said the pregnancy was unsalvageable. I was sent by
ambulance with a nurse to a bigger hospital, my bloodpressure was
dropping pretty fast. I was put on the drip to help hurry things
along. My son was born on March 1, 2001 at 1:40 am. They said i was
only 18 weeks along so my pr ovince didn't consider him a baby at
all. I named him Colton, he was only 3 inches long and 0.3 oz, very
tiny but he had all the parts a boy is supposed to, just so very
tiny. We held him and cried over him for 5 hours, i rocked him and
sang to him, we got 2 pictures of him and i made it very clear to the
staff he WAS going home with me for burial. He was laid to rest
between his paternal grandparents. I found out later that he died 6
or 7 weeks before i lost him, which put me at about 24 - 26 weeks
pregnant when i delivered him. It was by far the hardest thing I
have ever lived through. To make matters worse, a year and 1/2
later, due to problems I had to have a partial hysterecotmy and can't
have any more babies. I tried at one point and could not conceive so
my dream of carrying and delievering one more child is out of the
question. We have no ruled out adoption but I am not holding out
much hope there either. Anyway, i joined this group a few months
back and just could not deal with typing my story, so here it is, and
from what i understand, it could have been placental abruption (this
had never been medically confirmed) that made me lose my angel boy.
SOrry if this was too much info, i had to share and look for support
somewhere. My heart goes out to all of you who have lost children.
Stacey