I have been feeling like crap lately, not physically, but mentally.
Sometimes, I have no idea what the heck is going on with me. I can
get this way, and it can make me physically ill, just because I feel
so bad mentally. Well, I have had one of those weeks. It all came
to a head today. For the last 2 years, I have attended the Youth
Rally, as a counselor, mainly because I have 22 years of experience,
strength, and hope to share "one day at a time". Well, today I
realized just what the heck is going on....I miss sharing my
experience, strength, and hope with those kids. Why didn't I go
this year? Well, the truth is that I am low on funds, and the other
truth is that I didn't want to go to California...just fear of
California. That is all. So, I let my fears, and my lack of funds
keep me at home, and thinking about everyone that was there.
Finally, the tears came, and I am feeling better. I really
appreciate you all listening to me vent about this. Thank you all
for being here.
Jacy