6 month ago I had a urostomy, I am 26, at first I felt - what's the
use living - I had a lengthy session with a counselor who told me
that my urostomy, bag and all, is my friend - who saved my life and
allows me even to exist. It helped. Today - I have to remind myself
that the urostomy and bag is there. Thanks to Convatec I have no
problems. A very secure appliance. I realize that a colostomy is
different - but think about it. That thing saved your life.

Tris

--- In ostomatessupport@yahoogroups.com, "Min Talviharju"
<sweetie4you83@v...> wrote:
> hey,
> my first year is coming up with my colostomy and latley I have been
thinking
> about it and I can't get it off my mind.
>
> Novemember 3rd, 2004 The day started out like normal but then I
started to
> get real bad spasms so my mom put me in bed and that didn't help so
then she
> called 911 they took me to the hosptial and they did x-rays and they
noticed
> my colon was going to burst so then they called a surgen and he told
me that
> I had a 50/50 chance of coming out of the surgery. I remember
telling him
> that if he lost me I'd haunt him for the rest of my life.
>
> I just can't get that out of my head, I try to forget about it but I
can't,
> its hard for me to sleep because I keep thinking of it and its
driving me
> nuts! I wish I could forget about it because then it would make things
> easier for me. I know now that I'm alive and I'm not going to die,
but thats
> the one thing that I keep thinking about.
>
> I'm writing a letter to the doctor who saved my life that day and
going to
> give it to him in person on November 3rd 2005 and going to thank him for
> saving my life, even though the colostomy drives me nuts sometimes.
Before
> the colostomy I would think life wasn't worth it, but after I almost
died I
> don't think that way anymore, so the colostomy has changed me.
>
> I do need some support though because I'm going nuts thinking about
that day
> when I see Halloween candy I think that last Halloween could have
been my
> last one.
>
> If anyone could give me support that would be good,
> ~Min~
>
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