Dearest friends,

I just have to share this with you all as this is possibly one of those 'best
day of my life' days...

We have had a huge breakthrough at ds's therapy/ CAMHs meeting today.

It seems that his OCD has abated even more than we thought, and that we now need
to treat him as normal/ before OCD again... his words!!!

Apparently a lot of what he's doing now i.e.. using kitchen roll to touch stuff
is learned / habit behaviour and he feels a whole lot better. He feels he can
touch stuff without it!! I am just so happy!!!

I've even had a hug from him!! A HUG!!!!!!!!! Physical contact, last time was
June as HesFes ( home ed holiday for those who don't know.)

Other things he's done today that he couldn't do: we've been out for a meal at a
cafe' and even huger we went shopping! For clothes for him!!! In several shops!!
And we bought dd a gift!! He went in that shop too!

I sat in on the session at the psychologists at her request, and ds's (dear
sons) agreement - it was only going to be at the beginning but it went so well
that I stayed... and it was so good to hear that we can learn now to bet back
to how it was... we don't have to avoid him in rooms or move, or open things for
him, or prepare food.. he even said he'd like to prepare fruit for himself!!!
This is huge!!!

He even said he was pleased he'd managed to do toast! And he can use the normal
toilet roll not have to use a special one kept just for him...Wow!!!! I want to
shout if from the rooftops....but I can't as dd (dear daughter) is the one now
who can't take it and needs support to go through her kind of grieving process
for the years we have lost :( and the patience she has shown, and the stress and
loss of childhood times..:(

But next week she has a young carers buddy coming to take her out , and she is
progressing with her own counselling, and to be honest the way I feel now we can
conquer anything!! She just needs her time to be nurtured now..

I know OCD hasn't gone, I know it may still lurk but this is so good, it's so
different, it's so nice.

DH has gone out to get a curry, and several other take aways as we all like
different, and some Cherry B's for me, possibly some beer for him, choc for the
kids.. as we are going to celebrate!! (albeit quietly in front of dd).

I'm so happy, I can't remember when I was last this happy, I didn't think I
could ever be this happy!!! Woohoo!!!!!

Also I'd like to say my ds did it all without drugs, I know they are useful and
help many - we're not anti drugs, the reason I say it is he stuck to his guns
about it and he did it on his own - well with our help...

I know this is not the end of this, but for once, just once after four years it
feels good!! <sniff> (Virtual tissues needed)

Thank you dear friends for your support, prayers, thoughts, phone calls, emails,
your listening, acupuncture and herbal, and homeopathic remedies... and well
just being there.. many a time I would have given up, you kept me going. Oh and
by the way we didn't get him any trousers , but we had a lovely time and plan to
go again!

Love and {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
to you all,

Jenny. xx.

With very big smile - makes a change doesn't it!




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